* This is a poem about my battles with eating disorders. I refer to my eating disorder by names, which is actually really common among the eating disordered community. Ed= the overal eating disorder (who I see as masculine and is thus portrayed as so in this poem). Ana= the anorexic periods I go through. Mia= the bulimic periods I go through. I am diagnosed as ED-NOS, which basically means that I have characteristics of both anorexia and bulimia, and both are equally as strong. Comment, Vote, Fan, and let me know what you think!
Only Because I Love Them
He tells me I'm special
That I'm meant for great things
He is my best friend
But sometimes he's mean
But only because he loves me
He's with me through every moment
Scrutinizing every detail
Molesting my mind
And taking over
But only because he loves me
He says he means well
And he wants what's best
So he tells me all the rules
That I must obey
But only because he loves me
He introduces me to Ana and Mia
His co-workers
He says they will help me
And I must do everything they say
But only because they love me
Ana is harsh and unforgiving
She's a dictator that must be followed
She calls me all these names
Her words hurt, but they are true
But only because she loves me
Mia is nicer, lenient, fair
She teaches me how to take care of my mistakes
But it's not without sacrifice
Because I am left with no more voice, and even less of a smile
But only because she loves me
Ana, Mia, and Ed
Perfect me and shape me
To fit their mold
But their mold keeps getting smaller
Until I can't keep up anymore
So I just give them complete control
But only because I love them
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Perfectly Flawed
PoetryA collection of poems dealing with depression, eating disorders, hate, anger, suicide, hope, love, change, and new life. Enjoy :) xx
