Heal my Heart

16. Saving her.

Umm hello guys. Sorry for keeping you wait. So here you go with the most awaiting scene.

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Nandini

I parked my car and got out of it. Walking further I noticed here is so calm. I wish my life could be this calm and peaceful.

I forgot to carry cardigan along even after knowing it's February month. It's too cold. I wrapped myself with my hands and walked further.

How much depth this hilltop has. Now I see when I looked down the hilltop. Everything looks so small. The giant trees, the rushing water on the rocks and large sea.

Only the sound of rushing wind can be heard. Nothing else. No person. No problems. No drama. No tension. Only the nature.

I sat on the surface of the rock, a little behind the edge of hilltop.

What will happen if I return back home? Will they really get me married to that jerk? What will I do then?! Nothing is really left in my life. From the starting I came across only pain, lonliness. I lost my childhood in filling up my tummy.

Any normal child would play and study in their childhood but in my case everything was always upside down. When other children used to play, I studied because I knew after going back home I won't be able to or as simple as that, they won't let me study.

And when other children used to study at home, I had to work for my living. Even after having everything. I never felt I had anything in my life.

Anyone would say, I have parents, money, mansion, cars, every luxurious items but in reality I'm devoid of love, affection, care.

Till now I don't even know the exact meaning of love. Is love is helping people then get insulted? Or is love caring for people and in return getting tortured? Or is love, loving someone and in return they won't even want to see your face?

I don't know. I just know this world is cruel. No one doesn't care about any other person until and unless their profit is coming out of it. People are blinded by money, name and fame. People doesn't care about another person's emotions. People are born selfish. They don't know how many innocents they are harming while having their own joy.

I don't know what I have done to deserve all this but I know for sure if I return back today, whatever was even left in my life would be gone. They say, nothing lasts long. But in my case, nothing was ever there to last.

No person have ever loved me and would ever love. At least after knowing my past no would even want to see my face. No would want a broken girl who has nothing but has scars all over, who has been running all the time to balance her life, no would want a girl with ugly past, no would want a girl who has been raped, no would want a girl..

Tears came rushing down my eyes remembering that night. I shut my eyes tightly to shoo away those memories but will they ever leave me? That's my reality. Anything could leave you but past, past will always haunt you.

I know my past will never leave me. I have no options left. If I return back, history will repeat itself. Same things would happen again maybe this time it would be more dangerous, torturous, harsher and brutal than before. And even if I ran away, my past will haunt me and never let me move on in my life.

As till now, I'm trying to move on and forget my past but nothing worked. Here is my life with no sense. I don't even know why I have been dragging it this long. To get more tortured, or to get raped all over again? I don't know.

I always tried to be optimistic about life, always hoped that one day this all will end and I will be living happily but now it doesn't seems so. I'm done with tolerating everything, bearing everything that I never deserved.