Heal my Heart

28. New feelings

Bonjour mes Amis. Comment ça va? Je vais très bien!
Learning a lil French💃😉😉 these days.

I know I'm very late but I'm updating now.

Prendre plaisir!

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Nandini

I woke up with two voices talking very close to me. I couldn't make out who it was or who they were. My head was pounding. Every bone in my body felt like cracking. I just couldn't move. It felt like if I'll move any part of my body even a bit then it would break away.

"mmmh" I tried to speak but my throat felt too dry to even form a proper sentence. The people who were talking earlier must have noticed me being stirring in the sleep because next moment I felt someone's gentle hold on my arm.

"Nandini?" I heard a familiar voice near me. It was masculine, but at the same time soft and gentle. There was no harshness in that voice which I have quite accustomed to, till now from everyone. So it was very much surprising to hear someone talking so gently to me.

"Miss Murthy, can you hear me? Try to slowly open your eyes." another voice said. It was coming from another side, a little farther away from me.

I tried to open my eyes as instructed, but it was harder than that. Finally, after a few seconds of trying constantly, my eyelids slowly parted, letting the daylight entering directly into my eyes.

I moved my eyes to my right to see Manik himself sitting on a small stool by my hospital bed. His leg bending in a very strange manner because of his incredible height which seemed rather painful but he wasn't any bit bothered about that.

His intense gaze was fixed solely on me which held worry and concern. For me? Why? I don't even know myself. Shouldn't he be disgusted by my condition? He should be. He ought to be. But then why he is not? Any normal person would be right?!

He shouldn't be here in the first place. He shouldn't be prying into my matters. It's dangerous. He would only get hurt in the end. He is a kind-hearted person and I would never want him to get hurt just because of me. It will be so unfair to him. To his family.

He needs to leave me alone. He needs to go on with his life and forget about me. He needs to change his decision about marrying me. I don't deserve him.

He was like a ray of light in the darkness whereas I was the darkness itself. I will only darken his life further if he tries to make me a part of him or his family. The sooner he understands this, the better it would be.

I need to talk to him about his marriage decision. His decision need to be changed anyhow.

And I will do it even if it takes everything in me. He needs to leave me eventually. He deserves someone much more better than me.

"Miss Murthy?" Someone interrupted my thoughts. I looked at my left side to see Dr Chaudhary giving me a smug look like he knows something which I don't.

He obviously saw me eyeing Manik for longer than I intended. And now he won't leave me alone without asking thousands of questions and a handful of teasing. Curse his observant eyes and genius brain.