Heal my Heart

19. Gotten in head.

Nandini

A sharp pain in my head woke me up in the middle of the night. When my hand reached my forehead, I felt wet. Sweat drops. Opening my eyes only to find darkness all around me. Why my head was hurting this bad but not worse than my lower parts?

It's hurts really bad. Then it came rushing down my memory lane what all happened before I blanked out. I felt shame. I felt disgusted with myself. Why again? I was ruined once and now again. But nothing is different. First time was forceful so was the second and by the same person. Or should I say would be always by him in the future too.

I slowly tried to lift myself from the floor but the pain in several parts of my body made it worse.
Tears rolled down from my eyes thinking about his touches, that look in his eyes, and everything.

I was completely bare on the floor in my pathetic condition. The floor was cold so was my life and fate. I don't know if I should blame it all on my fate, life, people or worst me..myself.

My throat was dry. My body probably had bruises everywhere especially in my innermost areas. Why it has to me? What I have done wrong? Why it always have to happen with me?

How was I going to face my life again? How I am suppose to live my life more than this? Am I born to be like this? To face all this?

Before I could do anything black dots covered my vision and everything just disappeared and I felt numb.

Manik

Coming down the stairs I saw everyone have gotten ready. I was about to say the morning greeting but guess what mommy cut me to it. "Let's go" she said standing up from the couch. Wow. What?! No greeting. Someone's more than excited.

I guess I was standing there for too long when Mukti poked me. Damn this girl can never change. Can she? I glared at her. She rolled her eyes and literally dragged me outside. What the.. "hey no bad language" she said loudly. How well she knows me, hey note the sarcasm. I glared at her and looked around. Ahh I was lucky the we were still in front the Mansion and my parents were in the car parking area. I don't know what Mom would have done if she heard me saying such filthy language. I know for the fact that she will kick me till I'm senseless. Shi.. dam..fuc... Oh god I quickly mouth palmed myself. Idiot stop cursing. Stop cursing. Stop cursing..

Suddenly I felt a smack on my head. Ouch. I rubbed my head where she smack the poor little child on the head. What person does that. Only Mukti Malhotra. I glared at her before stomping my feet, walking far away from the 'Kicking creature'. I know why she smacked right on my head, because I was day dreaming, no cursing in my mind. But she doesn't have to know, because if she knows I'll be hanging upside down on the wall. Don't imagine that. It definitely sound hilarious but once you are in the position you will know what does it feel like. And now don't ask me if I have been in that position or not?! Is it safe to say 'let's not talk about that'.

Talking absolute shìt in my head. Not again but I reached the car. "Where is Mukti?" My mom asked. Ahh the far the better. But no one has to hear that or I'm dead. "Right here" came the beast's voice behind me. "Get another car and follow us" mommy yelled and just like that they drove away leaving the poor child with this jungli Billi.

God have some mercy on this poor child. I was muttering, more like reciting the same line again and again looking up at the sky but stopped when she walked in front of me at an eye to eye level. Hell sometimes I hate her height too. I know I'm 6'5 feet already but can't she be like a little smaller, like any other normal girls out there. Whenever I try to be intimidating in front of her, she will just cross her hands and stare at me with disinterest. So much for being a big bro.