My Love Story

Chapter seventeen: being his consort

Consort: A husband, wife, companion or partner.

But to Kris, it means ‘the other woman in his life’ or ‘the secret lover’ ‘the mistress’

As you all know, I am blind, deaf and stupid when it comes to Kris. I was so madly and deeply in love with him that I would do everything for him. I would be satisfied in whatever kind of attention he would give me. I would say ‘yes’ to everything he’d say.

I was busy reading a novel when I received a message

Kris: hey

Me:?

Kris: why so serious?

Me: I’m not in the mood for talking

Kris: awwww… </3

Kris: I have a proposition.

Me: what?

Kris: be my consort.

I took out a dictionary and searched for the meaning

Me: you want me to be a mistress?

Kris: yes. Be my mistress.

Me: you have got to be kidding me.

Kris: I’m serious.

Me: I’m not yours.

Kris: knowing you, I know you’ll agree.

Me: stop

Kris: you love me, right?

Me: yes, I do.

Kris: then be my consort

Me: fine

Kris: I love you.

Me: me too.

I became his consort for 6 months. We dated behind Fei’s back. Kris would go to my house to spend time with me. We were back to our relationship. But there are limitations. We don’t kiss. We don’t hold hands. We don’t voice out our feelings. Whenever we’re at school we would sit side by side. We would right on each other’s notebooks. We would share drinks and talk.

He would accompany me home after Kris has sent Fei home. We would stay late at school. He would hug me when no one is looking. We shared secret stares. We slip letters on each other’s lockers. He even made a secret account so that Fei wouldn’t discover our relationship. Everyone was clueless that we were back together. We didn’t tell anyone.

I was happy because I feel like I’m getting my revenge on Fei but at the same time I was sad because I knew that I was just fooling myself. I was just sharing him. I felt hate towards myself because of my love for him. I forgot what was right from what was wrong. I didn’t know what was good and what was evil anymore. I was blinded by my love for him.

I decided to break it off because I couldn’t take it anymore. I couldn’t accept the fact that I was just second to Fei. I couldn’t accept the fact that I was just an option, that I was never a choice.