My Love Story

Chapter twenty-two: why are you doing these things now?

“never expect, never assume. Never ask and never demand. Just let it be. If it’s meant to be, it will happen.”

Kris and I are now in college. Kris picks me up at school almost every day.

He would take me out to lunch and dinner.

We would update each other about the things that are happening in our lives.

He would call me almost every night just to sing to me.

He would take me home.

He would visit every time I got sick.

We would take strolls in the park.

We would watch movies.

He even bought couple necklaces.

Why is he doing these things now? He didn’t do this when we were still together.

I wanted to cry. As we were strolling through the park looking for a place to sit when I suddenly asked him “why are you doing this?”

“because I want to.”

“we’re not even together” I bowed my head

He didn’t reply back. We found ourselves in a playground. We sat on the swing set.

“why now?” I asked

“because, I have to treasure and care for the people I love.” He says.

“if I won’t treasure you and what we have then I don’t know what to treasure anymore” he adds.

I just stared at him.

“I still love you. I really do.” I whisper

“I still love you too.”

“but not on the same level” I said

“how much do you love me?” Kris asked

“you used to be my whole world. You used to be my everything. But now, yes, you’re still a part of my world, you still occupy a space in my heart. On the scale of 1 to 10, you used to be a 10, now you’re on 8. I love you as a friend, a brother…” I stopped and smiled. I couldn’t tell him that I still love him dearly. That on that scale he was on 9. I lied to him because I was afraid of rejection. I was afraid of being rejected by him.

“that would suffice” Kris said and smiled back

“I still love you too, but on a different degree” he then kissed my hand