I only know who

Chapter 7

Matt's POV:

I stood there in the hallway, tears threating to fall down my face. I just watched the girl I love walk away, and it's all my fault.

I sighed to myself and wiped my eyes, I walked over to my hotel room and sat down on my bed.

I hated myself. I hated the fact that I threw away my chance with Jenna just to hook up with Lily - even though I knew Jenna was the one for me.

--- TIME SKIP ---

Jenna's POV:

I woke up to the sound of traffic and huffed, I rubbed my eyes letting them adjust to the light. I sat up slowly and realised it was 7:30pm. As I sat there I thought about my whole situation and realised that I needed to talk to Matt. I reached​ for my phone that was on the bedside table and dialed his number, I sat there anxiously waiting for him to pick up.

"Hello" Matt asked sheepishly, I sighed in relief and lied back down.

"Hey, uh look I was wondering if you could come round? I need to talk to you" I said softly with my voice breaking at the last part, I took in a deep breath to calm down.

I was interrupted by a knock at the door, I got up off the bed and stood up.

"Hang on a sec" I said before putting Matt on hold so I could answer the door, and to my surprise Matt was standing there with a bottle of wine and two glasses, I looked up at him and giggled.

"Hey Jenna" He half smiled, I opened the door fully and signalled him to come in.

"Hey" I said softly, closing the door behind me. We walked over to my bed and sat down. I looked over at Matt and noticed how bad he looked. He had dark bags under his eyes, messy untamed hair and thick stubble. God he looked as if he hadn't had a wink of sleep or anything to eat for a couple of weeks and it killed me to see him like this.

Especially as this is all my fault.

"Coleman?" I broke out of my thoughts and realised I had been staring at him.

"Oh uh sorry" I mumbled to myself and looked down at my hands.

"Look Matt there is something I need to talk to you about. I don't know how this is going to go or what I am going to actually say so I'll just go with the flow" I spoke simply and looked back up at Matt.

"The real reason I broke up with Richard is, well it's because he cheated on me, with Lily.  That's why I reacted so badly of the incident at the party, it just brought back some memories and well to be honest with you it got me thinking that no matter who I like Lily will always be there to ruin it for me. I like you Matt and I have done since the day I met you. Karen saw you try and make a move on me at Arthur's party that's when I found out that you liked me, infact Gillan even convinced me to go back and tell you everything and so I did and that's when I saw it, you and her." I told Matt the truth and looked away again, sighing softly to myself and fiddling with the rings on my finger.

"I'm so sorry Jenna, honestly I am. Why didn't you tell me any of this, I could of been there for you and I wouldn't of left your side at the party!" Matt spoke swiftly and looked over at me.

"You do enough for me already Matt, I just didn't want to tell anyone about it as I didn't want people pitying me! My mum doesn't even know! I just wanted to keep it to myself so I could forget about it and move on but I was so wrong as she did it again!" I spoke a loudly, I was getting angry just thinking about her.

"You still should have told me Jenna, I'd do absolutely anything for you and I always will. You're my best friend and I will always be there for you. I hate myself for what I put you through and it kills me to see you like this - I mean look at you Jen!" Matt spoke worriedly and hinted at my body, I looked down and realised how much weight I had lost over the last week, especially as I haven't slept well in days.

"Jenna- Louise Coleman I love you, I really, really do and I can't pretend that I don't anymore. Ever since the day we met I knew there was something special about you. The way you would laugh as we mucked around on set was music to my ears. I love the fact that you were never shy to be you and that you would always be up for a laugh with me. The fact that you would always cheer me up when I needed it. It feels like I'm in a dream world whenever I'm with you" Matt spoke softly with a smile across his face, I could feel my eyes tearing up. I looked up at him and smiled.

"I thought I was the only one" I said simply, Matt looked into my eyes.

"I never thought that in a million years that you, Matt Smith, would ever like a girl like me. I've always liked you, but you're right, it's like being in a dream world." I said looking down once more.

"How come?" Matt asked slowly.

"It's too 'perfect', it'll never work."

-- Author's note --

Whoop I finally uploaded a new chapter💁I'm so sorry for not posting much of this story, I've been busy writing two new Smoleman/ Whouffle stories that I will be publishing soon. I am definitely going to continue with this book but I might split it into two books 😊 Anyway thank you guys for reading and giving me support, don't forget to vote and comment!

I'll hopefully upload another chapter soon along with my new book, chow for now ✌

P.S I'm sorry for any spelling errors I haven't proof read this yet x