Tough as a Tiger, Fragile as a Snowflake {YurioxReader}

Coping with the Pain

Okay so It's Kat here and I'm just warning you that this is going to be a ver depressing and triggering chapter so if you aren't good with stuff like that I recommend just waiting till the next chapter. The next chapter will be posted tomorrow and if you do read I hope you enjoy. OwO
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Narrator: Now that ______ is on her own what could happen? Nothing too bad right? Well, let's see what happens in this chapter of _____'s life.

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I woke up crying, not really knowing why. It was almost like I couldn't stop. I looked around at my surroundings to see that I was in Viktor's room. I got out of his bed and started looking around for him forgetting he wasn't home. When I realized he wasn't here I got the chills. The chills turned to cold. The cold turned to freezing. The freezing just got worse till I collapsed, shaking. I felt light headed as I tried to keep myself awake. I couldn't breathe. What was happening, well this was my separation anxiety, at least how it managed to affect me. I always had to know Viktor was around, at home where I could get to him, or there for me to call him and have him get me. Honestly, I'm lucky this didn't happen when I taught ice skating or when I was with Yuri. I managed to stand, gripping my chest with one hand and the wall with the other. I managed to make it up the stairs and back into Viktor's room. I collapsed again this time on Viktor's bed. I reached out for my phone which I had unconsciously left on the night table. I tried to unlock my phone but I couldn't stop shaking. I finally gave up on that and just used Siri.

When Siri came up I somehow managed to shakily say, "Call Dad."

The phone started to ring, I managed to put it on speaker, and I prayed that Viktor would answer.

I waited and waited unable to breath attempting to stop myself from blacking out, yet I received no answer. I had to go to my last resort which Viktor doesn't know about. Again, gripping the wall for support I made it into the bathroom. I sat down in the tub and grabbed my razor. I knew it would only be a temporary relief but what else was I going to do. I took the razor and I attempted to focus on it. I pulled up my shorts and shakily counted.

"One"

The blood was trickling down my leg.

"Two

My breath started to come back.

"Three"

I knew I should stop but I didn't want to.

"Four"

I felt like nothing ever happened.

I finally stopped and looked at the damage I had done. My whole left thigh covered in blood. I grabbed my bandage wrap which I kept near the shower just in case I hurt myself practicing and wrapped in around my thigh a few time to keep it from bleeding. I then got out of the tub and ran some water to clear the blood.

Once I did that I went back to Viktor's room and crawled under the covers, hoping Viktor's lingering scent would keep me sane and that whenever I woke up Viktor would either be back or calling me to make sure I was okay because I knew Yuri was gone too. Without even reading a text or asking him I knew he was gone because wherever Viktor goes, Yuri will always follow.

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Narrator: Will ______'s life without Viktor turn around? Will _____ learn without Viktor or at least share some emotion with someone besides him? Find out in the next chapter of _____'s life.