thirty-two: 11:37 pm
Dear You,
i don't actually like myself
so i'm sorry
if you never come into existence.
i thought i could do this
i thought i could pretend
i thought i could be happy for once.
for Christopher
for Amy
for Ekimelala
for Kalikiana.
because those four people
my four siblings
mean everything to me.
but i should really
be doing all of this for me
but most importantly, for you.
if we are going to have a future
together than i need to be there
to ensure that it actually happens.
so i'll lie to myself a little longer
pretend that i'm going to be okay
and that everything will go away.
even though i know
that my past will always be there
calling me, haunting me.
i don't really know
how i'm going to
work al of this out.
however, i consider myself
a pretty good actor and i'm good
at playing pretend.
so maybe this will
work out
and i'll be able to see you at last.
i'm holding on for you
and hoping that you're not as broken
as me.
i have hope for you
i really do.
harley.
March 15, 2017
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Letters From Harley
Random- letters to various people in my life and all the way to my deepest fears. - keep in mind that the names have been changed to protect privacy. - these are all that i think, and i'm sorry if there are any triggers for anyone. - #40 in Poetry - July...
