The anxiety curses through me,
I am going back to the place that kicked me out,
Just to get some shoes,
Yet I wonder how she will react,
When I come,
She said to re-apply in two weeks,
But that is scary in itself,
I might run into so people I haven't seen in a while,
This makes me nervous and scared,
If I do what will they say,
If I don't will I feel bad anyways.
Wanting to disappear,
But also wanting to go back,
Wishing I could go back to stay,
But no I was rejected and kicked out,
How do I go back to a place that rejected me,
How do I hold on when then pain surrounds me,
What will people think,
What will she say,
Am I really worth it anyways.
Have to wait another week to re-apply,
And it seems like an eternity in my eyes.
Though really is this what I want,
What if I get rejected again.
But all I can do is try,
And I will try again.
No matter what I will not give up,
Because I know I can and will succeed.
Feb. 13, 2014 - 6:15 pm
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When will the pain go away
PoetryA collection of poems that I am writing on the spot , trying to use this as a release of the darkness inside and hope I can express my feelings in a way that will bring some relief to my life.
