Sunday, May 10, 2015
(year change)
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Tyler
It's been a year since Josh and I went on our first date. I had a huge surprise planned for him. But it was ruined. I can't get out of bed or even move for that matter.
My sister called me.
When she told me, it was kind of a thing that you cannot believe it happened, but you knew it was going to sooner or later.
My mom killed herself.
My mom that I hadn't cared about since I was a boy.
My mom that was never much of a mother after my dad had left.
My mom, the only reason I hadn't killed myself yet.
If you would have been a better son like you could have, she'd still be alive.
Please don't be the voices.
I knew that if I committed suicide, so would my mother, right after. But that would be too much for my sister and brother. I couldn't put them through it.
None of them even care about you. Quit acting like they do!
Stop! I just got rid of you!
I should probably call Josh, who I had under Jish in my contacts. I managed to roll over and grab my phone. Once the phone was ringing, my stomach turned a thousand times all at once.
"Good morning to the most adorable man I have ever laid my eyes on," Josh immediately said when he answered the phone.
"Shut up, Josh" I laughed.
"How are you on this wonderful day?"
"Actually, not so good. Listen Josh," I started, "can I take you out maybe next week or something to celebrate the day that marks one year of me being able to call the most amazing man in the world mine?"
"Why?" he pouted.
Ha! I'm going to laugh when he leaves you because of this. Maybe if you'd get your shit together, you wouldn't have to cancel on poor Josh.
Shut up!
"I just found out that my mom committed suicide last night," I mumbled.
"Ty," I heard the sincereness in his voice, "I'm coming over and we're just going to cuddle, cry, and watch movies all day, okay?" he asked.
"Josh, you don't have too."
"But I'm going to. I'll be there soon. Don't you dare move!" He hung up.
Josh was the only person I could always count on. He was always there when no one else was. He kept me alive.
What am I for then? You always can talk to me.
I don't want to ever hear your voice again!
Before I even knew it, Josh was at my house with a shit ton of movies and snacks.
The first movie Josh put on was "Dumb and Dumber", my favorite (then his favorite, Fight Club). He held me close and rubbed my back, shoulders, did everything he could to make me relax and get my mind away from everything.
It felt amazing. Just having someone this close to me. Loving me. I knew Josh cared. He really did. That's all I needed.
That's all I've ever needed.
Besides me.
I've never needed you.
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