Friday, February 22, 2013
(next day)
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Tyler
Today. Is. The. Day.
I get to spend the entire day with Joshua Dun. No interruptions. No having to talk about my "problems". Nothing has to be kept professional.
Although I am extremely excited, I am also beyond nervous. What if I made everything really awkward, like I always do?
Pull yourself together, Joseph! Do you want him to like you even the slightest?
My heart raced a million miles an hour.
Speaking of hour, that's how much time I had until Josh would be here.
Why are you so nervous? He's the one that invited you!
Right. Had to remember that. It calmed me, but only a little.
I spent the next hour getting ready and trying to find the perfect clothes to wear and way to do my hair. I needed to set up for perfection if that's what I wanted.
I wanted Josh but he is basically the definition of perfection.
What about him even made me feel this way? Maybe I'd find out today. Hopefully I would.
My phone dinged and I read the text.
Josh: I'm here !!
Oh. My. God. This is really happening.
Me: Okay ! I'll be out in a second :)
So cliché, Tyler. Using a semicolon and parenthesis as a smiley face. How old are you? 10?
"Stop!!" I finally yelled. "Stop telling me all of these things! Stop trying to make me do things! Stop taunting me! I want to have a good day without you ruining it! Get out! Get out, get out, get out!"
You can't just yell at me and expect me to listen!
"I can't take it anymore! Get out!" I screamed, dropping to my knees and pulling on my hair.
I'm not leaving. Not now. Not ever. I'll always be with you, Tyler.
I heard a knock one the door. Damnit. I forgot about Josh.
"Tyler, what's wrong?" He asked.
"N-nothing, I'll be out in just a-a minute, Josh," I managed to push out.
"You're lying. Why were you screaming? Who were you screaming at?" he kept questioning me. "I'm coming inside, Tyler!" He said. With one swift motion, the door was open. I tried to stand up and wipe my face of any tears but it was no use. The floor pulled me back down and everything got dizzy.
You're not going anywhere!
"Josh, please, stay away!" I pleaded. "You can't have me in your life."
"No, Tyler, don't say that. What's going on?" his angelic voice now sounded very concerned.
"He won't go away. He won't stop. All of them won't stop. They never go away," I cried out.
Are you trying to blow out cover? No one is supposed to know about us!
"Who won't go away?" I could hear Josh's voice shaking.
"All of the voices! They're right! I should just kill myself. It would protect you and end my suffering," I curled into a fetal position. I was shaking and crying. My body started to feel numb. I couldn't move. My eyelids started to fall.
Josh is just going to leave you here. You better not pass out.
I couldn't help it.
Blackness struck.
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A/N: I have no clue where I'm going with any of this. But thanks for reading! -Alex
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FanfictionTyler Joseph was 23 years old and had depression from a life changing event as a kid. He starts therapy with Joshua Dun who soon becomes more than his therapist. Their lives take twists and turns. Their relationship strengthens and weakens. What wil...
