this is me.

Feb 14, 2014

February 14, 2014

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I'm hyperventilating right now. I FEEL SO JOOOOOOOOLLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

O. M. G. WAAAAAHHHH OKAY SO LET ME TELL YOU MY STORY AAAAAHHHHH :

Today, we were half day-- in our school. Only us, I think =))) and then it was already our dismissal time. I really wanted to go the field, which is next to the canteen, because that's where the basketball club is. My crush is there, yeaaah.

However, I was a part of a plan. I was supposed to hold a "B" sign. 

So, dismissal time we had to go a secret place because we might get caught. Why would we get trouble, you ask? Because my friend was going to court my best friend AND they're in love AAAAAAND they're both girls. 

Judge us all you want, but you can't blame us. Blame our school for being an ALL GIRLS school. 

It's a part of life.. you catch feelings for someone you're close with or who's kind. You can't resist or stop your feelings. 

Back to reality.

We were supposed to be the first ones to get there to like fix ourselves. You're really curious now what the plan is now, eh?

My friend, who will be named """Sherine""" 's plan goes like this. She picked 7 people. Why? Because each person was gonna hold a letter. I was the first letter, "B" 

The statement is like this, "BE MINE" 

She didn't make a question mark lol. 

But we had an extra person, who was gonna sing. :---) 

ALTHOUGH THAT WASN'T THE ONE THAT MADE ME HAPPY. 

I was holding a paper. And when I say that I mean a well-desgined paper by me. There was a letter written there. A love letter. I was finally going to give it to my lovey ♥ But then I got nervous because there were a lot of people. 

After """quarreling""" with the person with me, Patricia, she ""gave up"""

I thought she was really going to give it, but she instructed a stranger to do it for her; for me. 

And I was about to blow up when she received it. She read it within a blink of an eye WITH HER FRIENDS JESUS CHRIST. R U SERIOUS. 

It's alright though, it's not like it's the first time her friends read one of my letters. :(((

BUT LIKE SERIOUSLY DO U EVER FEEL LIKE YOU WANT TO DO SOMETHING AND THEN WHEN THE TIMES COMES YOU FELT NERVOUS AND MADE SOMEONE DO IT FOR YOU BUT THEN RIGHT AFTER YOU REGRET IT BECAUSE YOU REALLY WANT TO BREATHE THE SAME AIR AS YOUR CRUSH 

UGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHH BUT THEN IM HAPPY IDK WHY HAHA

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Today is my group of friends' monthsary ♥ AND MY GRANDPA'S BDAY ☻☺☻☺☻ 

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You're probably guessing I'm a happy kid, but I'm not. I'm just nervous to tell the truth. My secrets. It's really hard to let someone in when you vowed to never do such a thing 

Someday, you'll know the REAL me and my SECRETS and my every day THOUGHTS

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I DIDN'T PROOF READ BC IM TOO HAPPY AND LAZY TO ♣ 

Stay fab ♠