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February 13, 2014

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So all of you know that February 14 is Valentine's Day. The day of hearts. 

Why am I telling you this? because tomorrow is February. fourteen. two thousand fourteen. 

AND I will be giving a letter to someone ♥ and it's a girl. Yup a girl. I fell in love with a lesbian, big deal. But that's not the point I'm ""updating"" i mean i ""updated"" uggh you get the point.

I made her a love letter and I need your help to make finishing touches. And add more statements. Please make it sweet and romantic :))) 

Here goes: 

Dear Chesca,

          It’s you. It’s only you that I love.

I don’t know why I’m stuck to you. And I don’t know why I can’t love anyone as much as I love you. Yes, you read right, I... Love... You...

But of course you know that. I’ve told you that a lot of times.

 Although, how come I’m still here? After about 4 years, I’m still standing. I don’t know how I managed to, but I know why I’m here. I still can’t believe it, but nevertheless I did make a promise: I’d be here through thick and thin.  I’ve never broke a promise.. ever; therefore, I can’t get out of these strings attached to you.

Although, I don’t regret making that promise despite the consequences I encounter for the mistakes everyone makes point of. I’ve learned a lot of things throughout this “““misery”””

I won’t tell you those because you know what? I don’t let anyone in anymore. Don’t ask why but I have my reasons. 

Okay, I was suppose to make this letter to tell you how infinite my love will be, but I guess I’m just making you feel down. Sorry. (idk in a way haha)

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        You know what?

I’ve always wanted to hug you and be with you at least as a friend. Anything, at least I was with you.

I would take a bullet for you. No lie. It’s actually alright-slash-normal for me because I’m already numb. But to you, you’re not used to the pain. Give me all the pain you don’t want to feel. And when you feel like dying or making damage (baka lang) to yourself, or like try to slit youself (malay mo lang), take my arm and look me in the eye and cut as much as you can, make it as deep as you want. (omg this is so corny)

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Don't mind the words parenthesized ♠ they're foreign to you if you aren't a filipino like me :))) 

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