this is me.

Feb. 14, 2014 If only they knew

February 14, 2014 

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STILL THE SAME DAY MUAHAHAHAHA

okay so I'll just tell you something.. 

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If only they knew I gave up my girl dignity and became boyish. Why? So that my brother won't be alone considering he's the only boy in the family with my dad. 

If only they knew that I gave the person I love to someone else. They were in love, I couldn't destroy that and I have no right to get in the way. 

If only they knew that their words strike a dart in my heart.

If only they knew that I am willing to take all their pain away. I'm willing to make everyone smile. I'm willing to get hurt as long as they were happy. 

If only they knew I cared despite the hatred they give towards me. I could careless about their feelings towards me.

If only they knew that I'd be willing to be left out as long as I know they were chained together.

If only they knew that I always fake my jolliness. And they believed it.

If only they knew I gave up my happiness to make them happy.

If only they knew...

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so basically I made a poem lol.

But this is the truth.