PHILOPHOBIA (Book I)[Chanbaek/Baekyeol Fanfic]

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Baekhyun woke up in a dark creepy forest. The yellow moon shined brightly in the black sky, with starts arount it.

He suddently felt a wave of cold wind, making him shiver aggressively, and he finally noticed that all he was wearing was shorts and a T-shirt.

He stood up, deciding to look for an escape. His eyes were blurred because of the tears, but he couldn't loose hope. He had to stand up and be brave for at least once in his life.

He heard creepy laughs behind his back, as if mocking him. And unfortunately, it did affect him. He felt dizzy, and the world was spinning around him.

'Please be strong. Don't give up on me.' He heard a voice say, but this time it wasn't scary. It was soothing and calm, and it almost made him melt. It felt familiar, but he couldn't recognise who it was.

He stood up, ignoring the severe pain of his head, and walked to where he thought the voice came from. With every step he took, everything became clearer, and it looks like some sort of light was lighting his way.

'I love you, please trust me..'

*
Baekhyun woke up, gasping and sweating like crazy.

He looked around and noticed that he was in his room, alone.

Was it all some sort of a nightmare?

He suddently felt thirsty, so he decided to go down stairs to have a cup of water. As he made his way to his destination, he heard faint sobs coming from the living room.

"Chanyeol?" He called the giant, confused. "What's wrong? And what are you doing here?"

"Baekhyun! You woke up! Finally! I'm so sorry please forgive me!" Chanyeol whisper-shouted, before he hugged the smaller as if his life depended on it. Baekhyun noticed how he sounded like he was drowning in guiltiness.

'Was my dream true? Did he actually kiss me?'

"Why did you faint when i kissed you? I was so worried. Your parents were so worried. I feel so bad right now! You even slept for 10 hours!" Chanyeol cried.

"Chanyeol.. maybe we should talk. I think that we both have a lot to say."

*

The both sat on the smaller's bed, making themselves comfortable.

"We both have to be honest. Chanyeol, why did you.. you know, kiss me?"

The said male gulped nervously, before he looked at the ground, fiddeling with his fingers.

"I did that because i always liked you. You make me feel happy and loved. I love how your body fits perfectly with mine whenever we hug.. i never thought i will be doing this because i knew you'd never have the same feelings toward me, but here it is. I love you Baekhyun. More than anyone could do."

"Chanyeol..." Baekhyun said, speechless and shocked. He felt himself freezing in his place as he tried to process what he just heard.

"See? That's why i never wanted to tell you. Ah i'm so sorry.. for making this friendship awkward."

"Chan-"

"Oh no, don't tell me we aren't friends anymore!"
"Chany-"

"I'll do anything! But wait why am i even begging. I did a mistake so i deser-"

"Chanyeol listen to me!" The smaller snapped. "I also.. have feelings for you. But my problem is that i have a phobia of anything that involves love. It's not an actual rejection, it's just that we aren't meant to be. There will be no us, Chanyeol. As harsh and painful as it would be for the both of us this is the best thing we could do. Maybe we should give each other space."

The giant felt his heart shatter at the sudden confession.

No he did not feel happy that the petite boy loved him back.
Atleast if he didn't, he would tell him to forget what happened and act like nothing happened.

But no, he told him to stay away, and give him space.

He felt tears at the corners of his brown, almond shaped orbs, "if you really loved me you would atleast try to heal yourself. Don't you love me? I would do that for you. I would do anything for you."

"No chanyeol, that's not fucking easy. It's not physical. It cant be gone. I'm weak, i'm so fuxking weak that i can't fight for my love!" He screamed, as his tears run down his cheeks.

'A last time wouldn't hurt, right?'

He approched the giant who looked so hurt. The scene of Chanyeol not feeling okay because of him made him feel like the cruelest creature in the world.

He hugged him tight for a few seconds,

"If you would do anything for me, then please go. Let's end this. Let's be strangers."

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Word count: 791words.

Hi everyone!! Things are getting angsty lol. I hope you enjoyed the chapter!

I'm home alone with no food and it's 12 am, i'm scared as hell! I will be spending a night alone in the house for the first time! Pray for my poor souk because im such a scardy cat! 😩

I gtg sleep! See you later! 👀💜