Reckless Love

Chapter 11

'31.12.15.
Dear Diary,
For once I am completely up to date in all of my school work, Matt and Klaus were like a team helping me revise and get up to date and luckily I've not yet managed to fail any subject! However it means I've been extra busy and hardly saw much of Damon, I've hardly seen my dog for that matter. But tonight it's New Years Celebrations with all of my friends, my family and of course Damon. I've been smiling since Christmas!. Let's just hope it stays this way....'

I message the group chat which consists of; Bonnie, Yas, Klaus, Matt and Jeremy. "Who's bringing what alcohol?"
Yas: "I don't think it matters what we bring as long as it's alcoholic"
Matt: "Jer get your sister under control bro what is it with her and the new year, sort it out Gilbert"
Jer: "bro she's spoken for this ain't my problem, she has a boyfriend to look after her"
That's not very brotherly loving, they are so right I'm a bad drunk!
Klaus: "tequila it is Lena"
Me: "Klaus you the man! Matt is just a pussy"
Bonnie: "guys shut up y'all annoying bring whatever drink, see everyone tonight but rn I'm revising -Bonnie out"

Bonnie is the brightest of the bunch though she has family issues atm so she revises whenever she can in her own spare time, she's amazing really and so is her grandmother Shiela. No matter how crazy Bonnie says she is her grams is like everybody's grams. I'm excited to see her tonight she didn't make it on Christmas Day she had to go out of town.

I decide to go for a Jog I've not been for a while what with all the snow and ice, me and Izzy need fresh air. I tie my silky hair up in a tight ponytail, throw on my scruffy running clothes and fetch Izzys Lead putting her straight into excitement "now izzy don't ruin mummy's car okay" I kiss her head and grab a blanket to put on my car seat incase izzy gets muddy on our run though I'd prefer she didn't because not only will she ruin my car she will ruin my whole bathroom when I have to bath her, her fur is white and fluffy I hate it when it gets tatty and ruined I suppose any proud owner of a Samoyed Dog would be the same it's a huge pain in the ass but she's my Iz.
I drive up with the tracks and park my car, zipping my keys into my pocket and making sure my shoes are fastened properly I take a quick photo of Izzy as she sits with her tongue out waiting and the sun shines on her fur, placing my phone back in my pocket and zipping it up I set off running, izzy running beside me, the sun isn't so much warm, the weather is cool and breezy but the sun still shines a little, but the cool air soon doesn't bother me when I'm all hot and worn out, I take a sip of water from my bottle and squirt some at izzy who try's to drink it from the air.

Once we are back home and izzy is on my bed panting away to herself I decide on a quick shower and to make myself look like an actual girl.
When in the bathroom I notice that I've not washed my cheerleading outfit yet and I groan to myself cheerleading was for the old me but that bitch Caroline who "owns" the squad will hunt me to my grave if I just quit.
As I shower I repeat the shall I quit? No I can't, sequence over and over and go through the pros and cons of quitting or staying. It all comes down to loyalty really, they were loyal while I went through my patch with my mum so it's only fair I'm loyal to them. But I'm sick of Caroline and her attitude with the girls I couldn't give a shit if she is the sister of Yas.

"Penny for your thoughts" the sound of Damons voice catches me as I pour the fabric softener in the washer. It's around 7pm so it should be done by the time everyone comes...just so I know I won't forget to take it out. "Hey stranger" I am brung out of my thoughts and into the world of Damon "you okay" I am now you're here "I'm always okay for I will always have you to ensure that" I reply "however cheerleading" I roll my eyes as if to say don't get me started, but it's Damon so what does he do? Get me started "cheerleading, what's up with that?" I hate it. Before I reply he jumps in "yeah I've seen you cheering you look miserable out there" how the hell has he seen me? Stalker much "I do believe there's a word and a kind of category for older men who trespass to watch high school cheerleaders" I laugh out loud and he frowns "what are you suggesting Miss Gilbert? I simply gave your brother a lift to practice one day and happened to see my girl being all pretty and bored" hmmm suppose I'll let that one slide "it's just, cheerleader Elena was old Elena. New Elena lost interest and wants to kill the queen bee" I pull my best killer face and Damon laughs to himself.

11:56Pm I wonder back from my little toilet break and back to my garden where my dad is lighting fireworks, I'm so glad Izzy isn't scared of them, she loves them. "There you are! I thought you were going to miss the countdown" Damon hands me the cup I was using before, it's been refilled "would I ever?" I take a sip of the drink tasting the tequila straight away, I pull a face "Yas made that, and yes because you fall asleep easily I wouldn't doubt for a second that you could easily fall asleep on the toilet" I laugh, more for the fact that's probably happened. "10. 9. 8. 7. 6. 5. 4. 3. 2. 1. HAPPY NEW YEARRRRR" everyone yells and I'm spun around and met by a pair of soft but cold lips I've come to know and love! I feel Damon smile against my lips and a lot of gasps around me, he smells different, I open my eyes and I'm in absolute shock! "WHAT THE HELL" I'm met by Stefan grinning at me like a Cheshire cat, I slap him and he just laughs. I turn to find Damon and he is behind Stefan just staring blank.

of course, I begin to cry and run into my house up to my bedroom and locking it only letting Izzy in. she sits with her head on my lap allowing me to sob into her fur, my bedroom window is open I can hear Zach telling Stefan to leave and leave the garden is exactly what he does, leaves the garden and enters my room via the window. "so how was that?" he's smirking "get out now" I cry and Izzy growls knowing I obviously don't like him. "I think the lady said leave" Damon stands by my window, now he's sticking up for me? where was he a second ago when I was humiliated? oh yes, stood gawping, "hello brother" Stefan turns around "leave Stefan!" Damon's angry, as am I "both of you... both of you leave right now" I cry and for the first time since my mother I don't just shed a few tears like usual I full on sob, my tears probably drenching Izzy's fur as well as my clothes I don't want to be here. I should have died too! I become angry at myself and throw the nearest object, my lamp from my night stand it smashes against the wall and I want nothing else than to be gone.

"Elena, can I come in" it's Bonnie, the only one who ever can deal with me in this state
I unlock my door and let her in hardly opening the door and closing it before she's barely even in the room, she hops through the small gap and she holds me tight "I'm going to stay here tonight okay?" She whispers, her tone of voice is warm and it soothes me "oh Bonnie" I sob, getting tears, snot and druel down her cardigan, "I know Lena, I'm here I'm always here" i sit in the bed and Izzy moves over so there's room for Bonnie, she pats her head and accepts the seat my dog has so kindly given up
"I need to show and tell you something" Bonnie grins at me and opens my Yankee candle jars and puts them all together. She closes her eyes and whispers a foreign word to herself my candles blaze, then the flame calms.. did she just? I'm confused what the hell happened "Elena I'm a witch, you know how grams is always hammering on at me about our ancestors and all that crazy mumbo jumbo?" She rolls her eyes still grinning and I nod, her grams is a crazy gal "well everything she said is true, I am a witch" she sighs as if a big weight is lifted from her chest. Jesus? A witch? I can't believe this surely? But I believe in vampires? Oh my god!
Oh how I wish I could tell Bonnie