Best friends

Chapter 4

We dropped Justin of at his house so he can put his stuff away then he will be over later Ryan and Chaz came to my house and they were currently watching tv I excused myself and walked Into my en suite I took out the familiar silver piece of metal I say down and started to slice my wrists the metal was cold on my skin and left a stinging sensation behind but I deserved it everything I deserve it I made about 10 fresh new cuts I was about to make more but I heard a voice from downstairs it was faint but I could make it out

"Where's sky?..." that voice was Justin's

"She went to her room about 20 minutes ago" then was Ryan

I couldn't hear anything else but there were footsteps coming up towards my room I quickly cleaned my wrists and added a bandage pulling down my sleeve I flushed the chain and walked out if my room pretending to un knot my hair I was met by Justin who was sitting on my bed I sat next to him and it was silent until he decided to speak up

"I have missed you so much skyblue" he spoke pulling me into a hug

"I missed you too jay" I replied

"So how is everything how's school?" I froze do I tell him do i not

"Same old it's boring as usual" I'm not ready to tell him I can't do it he will hate me and leave me like everyone else in my life like people at school said Ryan and Chaz are only friends with me because they feel sorry for me!

"Skyblue.... are you sure everything's alright?.... you.... seem.. different?" he asked I became nervous did he no?

"Ur yeah I feel fine just really tired hahah" he gave me a look saying he dint believe me but went along with it anyway.

i made my way downstairs with Justin on my heels i made sure every movement i made was carefully thought about it, i didn't want him to find out my secret he would kill me!

Me and Justin were play fighting over the remote when i fell back he climbed on top of me and started to tickle me i was punching and kicking him he held my arms above my head, i felt my sleeves roll down a bit tried pulling my arms down i used all the strength i had in me, he was still laughing but this isn't a joke anymore, i noticed his laughing started to fade i fearfully looked a his face to see they are looking at my arms all my cuts are showing at the bloody bandages hiding my fresh cuts.

I had tears running down my face, he slowly tilted his head looking down into my eyes he had tears streaming down his cheeks.

"skyblue...." he croaked through the tears