HeartBeat[Niall Horan]

Chapter 13

The taxi driver is driving so slowly and it's driving me mad. He needs to hurry up. I can't keep my mother waiting she will scream at me no matter what explanation I give her for being late and it doesn't help that Nialls apartment is over an hour away. As we start getting closer we pass a college. I really ought to get myself into one. I'm still 18 and I need to keep studying if I want a good future. I was never very fond of school but I've always looked forward to college. But the problem is I have no money. I don't know if my mum would pay because she only likes to spend money on herself. But this is important and I hope she can compromise a little. We are only about ten minutes away now and I'm at the point where I have the urge to tell the driver to hurry the hell up. However I don't have to the guts to so I lay back.

Once we finally reach my mothers house I pay the driver with the money I had saved up from ages ago. Hold on. Before my dad died he used to always put money on my debit card to save up for college. Shit, I need that card. Before I can start worrying myself to extreme limits about where it is I focus on seeing my mother for the first time in ages and prepare myself for all the bad comments on how I look and why I haven't spoken to her and stuff. And not to mention why I haven't got myself into a college yet. I walk up the stairs to the house. There is a unfamiliar car on the drive way and I wonder if it's one of mums friends or perhaps she got a new boyfriend? Any how I just open the front door and walk in.

"Hello?" I call and the house stays silent. That's odd. Normally you would hear the clicking of my mums heels throughout the whole house but not today. I put my bag down on the side and I spot my mums ridiculous leopard print heels on the side. Well she's in. She has to be. I scan the whole of downstairs but she's not here. So I walk upstairs and I hear faint laughter. Mum. But wait I hear a guy too. I knew it. As soon as I leave she goes and hooks up with some random guy. Or is it that guy from work that mentioned ages ago?

"Daniel stop" I hear my mum giggling. What the hell are they doing. Oh god I don't even want to think about that. I approach the bedroom door and bring my head closer to the gap and open it ever so slowly just so that I can see in side. On the bed is my mum in what looks like a sex suit (that's new) and this guy on top of her kissing her boobs. How disgusting. I take a second to decide wether I should interupt or wait downstairs or something but seeing my mum like this is not something I'm used to and it slightly disgusts me to think my mum behaves like this when I'm not here. Actually she knew I was coming today I spoke to her yesterday.

"Daniel my daughter is going to be here soon its, actually she's going to be here any minute" She's still laughing. What is she doing. Okay that's it.

"Um mum?" They both sit up to look at me with horrified expressions.

"Oh sweetie you're here" I nod and turn to walk out. I'm so disappointed in her. It didn't take her long to get over dad and that's what hurts because she used to always tell me even after he died how much she still loved him and here she is hooking up with some random guy and not even telling me she's seeing him. Is she seeing him? Or did she just invite him over so that she could get some pleasure. Which ever one it is I'm so let down and upset. I hurry down the stairs and decide to wait in the kitchen and try and pull myself togther. She can make her own decisions and she chose to do this so if anything she should really be on her feet imediately on her feet and running after me and begging for an apology. I won't be able to hold this againts her for long beause she is my mother but I have the right to be upset about it. I pour myself some coffee that was still quite fresh and take small sips while I wait for my mother to come downstairs. Well this is not what I was expecting to find when I come to visit her after months.

I'm almost finished with the coffee when my mum appears in the doorway of the kitchen. She has a dressing gown on thank god. At least I don't have to see her in that thing. I don't even know what to call it.

"Honey, I'm so sorry I-"

"Who is he?" I ask. I try to keep calm and not break down. She needs to know that I'm strong and don't always break.

"What?" How could she ask that. It wasn't a hard question.

"Who is he mum" I don't even feel like calling her mum. More like a slut.

"He's a umm, he's a friend"

 "Just a friend? That's not what friends do unless you're friends with benefits" I'm on the verge of tears now becuse I feel so let down.

"Forgive me?"

"Explain to me who he is, why he is here and if you're seeing him or not" My mother still looks horrified after being caught in bed with a random guy by her own daughter.

"He's a guy from work the one I told you about and well we started seeing each other two weeks ago, he took me out for lunch or a drink every so often and I invited him round and we kind of ended up" She stops. I knew it. She has the nerve to hook upw ith him when she knows I'm coming to see her.

"But you knew I was coming over today, you could of at least told him that. I don't care if he's here when I am but this is not what I expect of you. You're supposed to be my mother that loves my dad and not a mother who goes from one guy to another so quickly. He can be here but in you're bed when you knew I was coming and now I'm technically scarred seeing you in that suit , I don't even know what that is. But this isn't like you mum. This isn't the mum that raised me up. I didn't think you were going to be so quick to have another man inbetween you're legs when it hasn't even been one fucking year since dad died!" I'm shouting at her now and I don't care if she doesn't approve of my language she needs to fucking get all of that in her head and respect me more. I can't believe my mother. I have to leave. Tears are pouring from my eyes. And this had to come now when I've just forgiven Niall and I feel so lost now. I feel like I can't count on my mum not to hooke up with random guys without knowing, I would of appreaciated if she had told me that she's seeing him.

"You know what you're right Lillyan, but we all make stupid mistakes and this was one of mine. I should have thought about what I was doing and I do, with all my heart love your father and you know that. But I am aloud to see another guy that is sweet and for once I feel happy. After your father died I was in pain too just like you are, but since i've met him I'm happy for the first time in ages" She's crying too. I feel slightly bad for shouting at her like that when she is so calm and relaxed. Well maybe not relaxed seeing as she's crying but she's keeping her voice low and not screaming at me. We are joined by Daniel and my head drops to the floor. I certainly don't like him. If I hadn't interrupted them I'm pretty sure he would have carried on doing that to her.

"I'll see you on Monday" His voice is low and he sounds dissapointed and he should be. I want to tell him to never come near my mother again but that is something I can't do. My mother has a life of her own that I don't have a right to control and she's aloud to make her own decisions. One thing that I want from her is not to have him here if I am. As he leaves my mother comes to hug me.

"I missed you" I sigh and nod. "Me too" I have missed my mother. In a way I missed her always complaining about my looks and her harsh comments. She pulls away and gives me a warm smile. I'm going to forgive her for this but if it happens again I will loose all my respect for my own mother. We sit down on the couch with hot chocolate and I explain to her what happened with Niall ages ago and how we are together again and the first time in ages I feel as though she's listening to me and actually intrested. I feel like she's somehow changed. Maybe it's just because of what happened today. I wonder if she would of been like this if I had come here and she was just on her own. Would she be so kind to me and listen to me or would she try and bring me down like she used to. I don't know but I like her this way. Not the slutty way but the kind warm hearter and good listener way. After explaining everything to her I move onto college and how I've been searching the internet for a fairly cheap one and that I saw one not too far away from here. She seems thrilled that I've been putting in effort to find education and when I asked if she could help get into one she was more than happy. I guess she does want the best for me.