HeartBeat[Niall Horan]

Chapter 22

Chapter 22

My mum kindly offered to drive me back to our place so I didn't have to pay for a taxi.

I don't really know if I want to stay at college or stay with Niall. Staying at college will cut travel costs but then if I stay with Niall I have to spend a lot on it and plus I would have to get up at 4 every morning.

If I leave Niall I have a feeling he'll start drinking again. He drunk daily after we broke up and he's finally pulling himslef together and he's really trying and I love him even more for that.

"Thanks for the lift" I say as my mum comes to a stop outside the apartment.

"No problem, see you soon?" she asks.

"Sure" I nod and get out the car.

I take the lift up and walk to our apartment. Niall is spread across the sofa asleep and I decide againts waking and him and go for a shower.

After my shower I change into comfy clothes and make myself a sandwich then join Niall on the sofa without waking him.

I want to ask him about his time with his parents. They travel a lot now and he doesn't see them often.

The film Niall chose seems a bit boring so I switch channels and look for something decent to watch.

"Hey you're back" Niall says sitting up.

"Yeah, sleep well? I giggle.

"Yeah thanks" he replies.

"How was it" 

"Oh you know I just got accepted, no biggie" I say trying to hide the huge grin on my face.

"Oh my god really? Congrats baby" he says pulling me into a hug.

"Thanks" I smile.

"You'll do so well, when you starting?" 

"September" I reply looking down at my lap.

"I won't be able to spend endless hours cuddling anymore then?" he pouts making me giggle.

"We can cuddle when I come home, and about that" 

I have a feeling this isn't going to go well.

"What is it?" He asks.

"Well i've been offered a dorm, you know so I don't have to travel all the time.

"You're leaving me for college, how fucking brilliant" he scoffs, rolling his eyes.

"No it's not like that, I never said I was going I just wanted to talk to you about it first"

He rolls his eyes once again.

"If you don't want to then we can talk another time" I say hoping he'll calm down.

"If you want to go then go"

Umm.

"I thought you'd be nicer about this"

"Well I'm not going to force you to stay" he says sternly.

"I don't know, I don't want to leave you but I don't know how I would afford the travel"

"I don't know either Lillyan"

"Maybe I should just move back in with mom" I say mostly to myself but Niall heard me.

I know it would make things so much harder, him living in the city and me being so far away and busy with college and not being able to spend as much time together but in all honesty I want to do well in college and I don't want to have to worry about travel costs all the time. I reckon it would be better that way.

"Are you shitting me? She lives two fucking hours away, what's going to happen to us?"

What would happen? Could we make long distance work?

"I don't know Niall, but it  would make more sense for me to do so and as much as it pains me to say it I think it would be better for me to move back" 

"Better for you yes, but what about me? I can't be without you Lilly" 

Why does he always make things so hard. Make me feel bad for things, including this, always find a way to get what he wants. He'll probably find a way to make me stay.

No. Not this time. I need to do this no matter how hard it may be.

"We could still see eachother on the weekends and you could come down to visit when you get your car?" 

"You really wanna do this? Put so much distance between us?"

"Niall you know how important college is to me. I worked so hard to get accepted"

"Yeah, I know" he sighs.

"Let's go out for a bit, we can talk about this another time" I offer and he agrees pulling me off the sofa.

This is proving to be more difficult than I had hoped.