HeartBeat[Niall Horan]

Chapter 23

23.

we strolled through endless parks and busy streets till our tired feet carried us back home. Niall and I didn't discuss much throughout, I don't know what to do. It's times like this when I could do with a friend. Someone who I can talk to. Besides my mother I don't actually have anyone. Well apart from Niall. Maybe Harry, who I try to avoid because Niall gets all touchy and I'm too tired to deal with that.

I hope starting college will mean I can make new friends. I really need a few of them.

Currently we're sat on the sofa and as usual, I'm reading my favourite book that I might have read a thousand times.

I peak over my book at Niall who sits there with a blank expression.

"What you thinking about" I ask and he slowly turns his head towards me.

"Lilly'

"Yes?"

"I think you should get that dorm"

Wait, he's actually okay with this?

"You sure? I don't have to I mean we can think of so-"

"Babe honestly, it will make your life so much easier. It will be better for you. And for me? I'll move back home. We can give up this place and maybe come back later. I always had that thought in the back of my mind that we moved too soon. Think about it Lilly. We're so young, you're going to college and you're going to be busy. I'm looking for a job and we just won't have time, for well, anything really"

I was shocked. Shocked that he changed his mind so quickly. Shocked that he is willing to give everything up so easily. I know he's right but what does this mean. We're not over, like completely are we?

"What are you sayin?"

"All i'm saying is I think for now we should concentrate on our own lives, for a while"

"Are you-"

He can't be. He wouldn't. Not like this. All beause i'm going to college?

"Maybe we should break up Lilly, I pains me too because I love you a lot but maybe this is what we both need" He says taking my hands and placing a kiss on top of it.

Why. Why this? Why can't we just work something out. Why end it over this?

"I-but I-" I can't even form a sentence. The tears stream down my face and I feel betrayes almost. No that's not the word, let down is more suitable. How could he give up so easily. Not even try to work someething out. Just flat out end it?

"Baby, please don't cry" He says pulling me to his lap and I cuddle into him.

How could I not? After all he's breaking up with me. But could this maybe work? Would this possibly be better for us?

"This isn't goodbye forever Lilly, just for a little while, ya know?" I nod but the tears are endless and I feel like curling up into a ball in a dark room and crying forever. I never knew that I could love someone so much. Him breaking up with me made me realise how difficult it's going to be without him and how much I really love and care for him.

Maybe it could work though. Maybe he's right. We could still meet up on weekends when I don't have tons of assignments and just hang out as friends, we could be good friends. Just like back at school. As long as I don't loose him completely maybe I could deal with this.

"Niall?"

"Baby"

"Promise we'll stay friends?"

"Of course baby, I'll always love you. And we'll meet up whenever we can. Like I said. this isn't forever goodbye"

I nod and he wipes a few remaining tears.

"I love you so much" I whisper and he hugs me tighter.

"And I love you, forever and always"

"Forever and always" he said.