HeartBeat[Niall Horan]

Chapter 7

I've been up since 5am just sitting beside Niall praying to god he was ok. His breathing was heavy and fast. I wanted to feel his lips on mine, his warm touch around my neck. I wanted that all but what if he did cheat on me.

I crawled out from under the warm blanket and headed to the kitchen for a bite to eat. I stopped my eyes gazing over at Harry who was fast asleep on the couch. Why was he still here I swear he went home last night. I ignored him, my feet taking me into the kitchen over to the fridge. I opened it carefully trying not to make too much noise.

I steadily walked into the living room trying my best not to wake Harry. I dumped myself on the other couch and turned on the tv putting the volume on low. I stared blankly and the tv screen munching on a sausage roll and I hadn't noticed Harry wake.

"What you doing up?" He asked rubbing his eyes. I lent back further on the couch and sighed.

"Couldn't sleep, I'm so worried about Niall" I spoke quietly fiddling with the remaining sausage roll.

"Oh" Was all he said. Well that helped me alot. I took another bite from my food.

"You look cute when you eat" I looked up at him.

"What?" I knew what he said I just you know wanted him to say it again I guess.

"When you eat, you look cute" He repeated. I smiled.

"Thanks" His low chuckle could be heard. We both just sat there in complete silence. I glanced oer at the clock on the wall, 7:30 am. Footsteps could be heard making their way towards the living romm. A sleepy Niall walked in. There was massive purple bags under his eyes.

He looked like hell. He looks as if he hasn't slept in weeks. He slowly made his way over to me and sat beside me his eyes meeting mine.

"Lillyan, I'm so sorry" A tear ran down his cheek. I pulled him into a tight hug as he cried into my neck.

"It's alright babe, please tell me where you've been?" I asked lifting his tear stained face up to mine. He opened his mouth to speak but closed it again. He just broke down again burried his face in his hands.

"Niall please talk to me, I won't be mad I promise" I said reassuringly. He looked up at me, his pupils wide. The once beautiful blue eyes were replaced by dark hurt ones. Confusion took over me when he handed me his phone.

"What's this for" I asked holding his phone firmly in my hands.

"Look through the pictures, I want you to know the truth" He was crying even more now.

"I promise that what ever you see I didn't mean, I was drunlk and waisted I didn't know what I was doing my mind made me forget about you and everything I have  please dont be mad"

I scrolled through the pictures of Niall snogging girls some are even him kissing boys, him on the rooftop of some nightclub, him getting sucked off. No I couldn't do this. My vision became blurry as I scrolled on. It was difficult for me to see them but I was trying so hard to fight back the tears.

I put his phone down calmly.

"Lillyan I can explain" He cried. There was nothing to explain. He knew what he did that night so why did he go back to do it again.

"YOU KNEW THAT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN SO WHY DID YOU FUCKING GO BACK" I screamed tears  sprinting down my cheeks.

"Lillyan I didn't know about these pictures I swear" Anger and hurt filled his eyes. Anger, why is he angry he should be apologizing not arguing back,

"YOY FUCKING DID OTHERWISE YOU WOULDN'T OF SHOWN ME YOU DISGUST ME NAILL" I screamed louder my throat aching. Strong arms pulled me back as I was about to slap Niall. He deserved pain right now. How could he do this. I though he loved me. I tried wriggiling out of Harry's hold but it was no use he was too strong for me.

"I HATE YOU" I hated him so much right now. I wanted to pack my things and leave. I felt as if I were being crushed. The feeling you get as a child when you best frieend steals your toy and you find out it was them, well this is the exact same feeling.

I turned in Harry's arms and cried deep into his chest. He picked me up and we walked out of the living room leaving Niall to cry. He fucking deserves all the fucking hate he could get. I knew for a fact Harry would be on my side. He always was.

He sat on the bed me straddiling him tears still erupting from my eyes. Harry stroked my back softly rubbing soft circles into my shoulder blade. I began to relax under Harry's touch.

"How could he" I whispered into Harry's shoulder.

"I dont know, he's never done anything like that before"

"So you saw the pictures too?" I asked pulling away a little to look at him. He nodded in response. I sighed knowing things between me and him were over. I felt so hurt and angry and all these feelings were jammed inside me. It's going to be so hard for me to get over this.

Can I even get over it, I dont even know. I would certainly need Harry's help. I hugged Harry once more, he rubbed my back again softly again till I pulled back.

"Harry I'm going to need another place to stay at, do you think I could crash at yours just until I have my own place?" I asked sweetly.

"Of course, anything for you" He kissed my nose gently. I smiled.

"Help me pack?" I asked getting off his lap. He nodded and handed him a red suitcase. I told him to put all the clothes in there while I headed to the bathroom putting everything that belonged to me in a bag. I gasped in shock when I found Niall standing right behind me.

"Lillyan please let me explain" He began sliding his hands around my neck. I pushed them off me.

"Those pictures explained everything Niall, there's nothing left for you to say" I spat harshly. I was so mad at him. I didn't care what he had to say.

"Lillyan please"

"No Niall, dont expect me to listen we're done" And with that I walked out the bathroom slamming the door shut. I returned to the bedroom to see a shocked Harry.

"What was that about" He asked coming over to me as I leaned againts the door.

"Nothing important, I just let him know we're over"

"I guess he didn't like the sound of that" Harry sighed. I shrugged and walked over to the suitcase Harry was holding a second ago. My hands were trembiling as I finsihed up packing everything.

"I'm ready to go" I announced as Harry sat on the bed on his phone. He got off the bed and popped his phone in his back pocket. I let him go first out the bedroom. I stopped at the bathroom door.

"I'll wait in the car" Harry spoke as he took my suitcase from me already knowing why I stopped. I nodded and knocked on the door.

"What" Niall sobbed. I opened the door gently. Niall was sat on the floor leaning againts the bathtub.

"I came to say goodbye" He looked up at me, hurt.

"So you're really leaving? I thought that was just a pathetic joke to upset me" I laughed. He thought I was just kidding? Has he even thought about what he's done? Me leaving isn't half as bad as what he did.

"Dont be ridiculous Niall, you don't deserve me and you know what?"

He didnt say anything.

"You deserve to be upset right now, me leaving you is no where near as upsetting as what you"ve been doing to me" My eyes began to sting once more as tears formed in my eyes.

"I-i'm sorry" He began.

"You should be" I said nothing more after that. I walked away.

I got in the car,  tears still rolling down my cheeks.

"You sure you wanna do this?" Harr asked taking hold of my cold, trembiling hands.

"One hundred percent"  He sighed and let go of my hand and turned on the engine. I glanced back at our, his aprartment.

"Goodbye Niall" I whispered againts the window of Harry's car. We began to drive off and I bought my knees up to my chest hugging them tightly.

Will I ever be able to move on?