You're My Rock ( A Rocky Lynch Story )

Chapter 13

ROCKY POV

They knew? But how? I didn't know whether this was going to change things, or whether my family would all go back to hating me. Ross explained to me, that they had found the pills in the cupboard. Jules held my hand and comforted me as Ross continued to apologise for what happened.

It wasn't his fault though, in fact out of everyone, it was probably him that had the least part in it. All of my family had red swollen eyes, apart from Ryland. He just looked bored and as if he wanted to be anywhere else but here.

It was silent for a while, just the occasional sniffle or sigh from around the room. Jules kept her tight hold on my hand, and I couldn't help but notice the occasional glares that my mum sent her. What happened there?

It became awkward, with all the silence and the tension. It shouldn't be like this, we're a family, we shouldn't feel awkward or uncomfortable around each other.

"Why didn't you tell us?"

I looked up and saw Rydel in the corner, staring intensely at me. She still had the occasional tear running down her cheek.

"Huh?"

"Why didn't you tell us about your mood disorder?"

When she said that, I felt so angry. As if they didn't already know why I wouldn't tell them. They made it pretty clear that they wanted nothing to do with me.

"Are you seriously asking that question? Why would I tell you? None of you have been there for me, there's no way I was going to tell you. I can't trust you wi-"

"We're your family, you're meant to trust us"

I looked over at her. "No, we're not a family. Families are meant to support and love each other. You guys just make me feel like crap and like I don't belong there. You haven't been there for me at all. I can't even remember the last time that one of you asked me how I was feeling. There's no way that I'm supposed to trust you".

They all seemed to pause and take in what I said. Rydel, Riker and Ross were crying while my mum looked hurt, Ryland still looked bored but my dad looked the worst. He wasn't crying but his eyes were still swollen, and he looked like he had aged 10 years in the past day or so. He had major frown lines forming, and it was clear he hadn't been sleeping.

"I'm sorry for what how we've treated you Rocky, but I'm willing to change. I'm going to be there for you and help you" He spoke quietly.

"Me too, you're not only my brother, but you're my best friend Rocky" Ross spoke up.

"I'm your big brother. It's time I start acting like it. I'm here for you too" Riker half smiled.

"Rocky, you're my little brother. You've always been there for me, I'm going to be here for you", Rydel declared.

Seeing my siblings, and my dad all supporting me, made me feel special and loved. It had been so long since I had felt this way. I mean sure, being with Jules is incredible, but nothing can replace family.

Ryland and my mum stayed quiet. They didn't even show any emotions. It hurt me, the fact that I had almost died, and that I was in the hospital, right in front of them, yet they acted as if I didn't even exist, or that they didn't want me to exist.

"Rocky, when I found your medication, the bottle was pretty much full, except you've had it for over four months, why haven't you been taking them?" Ross looked at me.

I struggled to explain. "The pills, they make me into an overly happy person. Like I'm nothing but cheerful, and that isn't me. And when they wear off, my moods get even worse, I'm violent and angry, and I can't control it"

I looked down at my hands, remembering when I beat Ethan up. Maybe I was a monster. And when I hurt Jules, I don't think I'll ever forgive myself.

"Is that why you were so mad yesterday?"

"Yeah..."

I felt Jules tense up. I looked over at her, and saw that her expression changed from loving and caring, to angry and hurt.

"You were on drugs during our date? When you asked me to be your girlfriend?"

I just nodded.

"I can't believe you!" She yelled, not caring that my whole family was staring at her.

"I know it sounds bad, but I only took them to give me extra confidence. I love you"

She stood up. "I think I should go"

She didn't even look at me as she walked out the door. Ross put his hand on my shoulder, trying to comfort me, but I couldn't help it when I started to cry. How did my life go from perfect, only 6 months ago, to this?