Mayday [MarkSon]

Chapter 10

"What?" I ask Youngjae.

"Its your patient's birthday today" Youngjae said as he put his hands in his pockets. The weather is getting colder.

"I have alot of patients Youngjae" I sigh as I am done with Youngjae's crazyness.

"Well...This patient is special"

I looked at Youngjae...He gave me that look...The look that say you-know-what-i-mean.

Don't tell me

Its-

"Well its about time to go to your next appointment Doctor" Youngjae said happily. I look at the time and stood up.

I walked quietly at the halls. Its his birthday. Should I prepare something?
Should I give him something?

I shook my head thinking I'm getting worked up over something that isn't important for crying out loud. He's my patient and such personal occasion is out of my hands.

I reached his doors. I entered. First thing I saw is his back facing me. He is sitting at the bed..seemed to be engaged at something. I closed the door behind and the noise made Jackson looked back slowly, then he turned back as if not acknowledging my presence.

"Good afternoon, Jackson" I greeted and sat at my usual spot beside his bed. I noticed he was holding a letter.

"What's that?" I ask. Curious
He pushed it away. "Nothing important" He said. I don't believe it. "Who's it from?" I ask. Jackson glared at me. "I'm just asking" I said.

"Its just a stupid letter nothing more" Jackson explained. But it seem that he liked that letter so much. However, since its Jackson I don't want to anger him.

Our session started with simple exchange of questions and answers.
He can now openly answer some question but still left some mystery behind it. unfortunately, he still sound the same look the same...Even worse he look depressed. I know the news about Jenny might have triggered these emotions.

Seeing him like this makes me question my expertise. Am I not good enough?

"Jackson are you okay?" I ask. Jackson never actually looked at me in the eye through the whole session

"What do you think?" he ask. I felt uneasy. Almost like giving up.

"I'm sorry"

This words left my mouth.
Shock by my own actions.
I gripped my pen.

"What?" Jackson asked confused. I looked away.

"Nothing...That's all for today" I stood up.

But

Then..

"Wait-" He said and grip my wrist. I couldn't look at him. Why am I stupid to let those words out?

"I have to-"

"Why are you apologizing?"

I squinted my eyes at my stupidness. I couldn't just say it to him.

"Tell me Mark" I was suprised that's the first time he said my name. I don't know why but my eyes suddenly flowed out with tears.

"I'm sorry because I can't heal you...But Jackson I'm trying okay...I'm trying" I said. I shouldn't be like this loosing confidence infront of a patient but I can't help it...

I'm loosing myself because of him.

"I just want you to accept me Jackson...I want you to let me change you..."

After that I pulled my hand and left.

A/N:HBD KING JACKSON WANG!