Mayday [MarkSon]

Im with you

JACKSON

"Hyung" Yugyeom called as I ate the sandwich my little brother made

"I'm sorry"he said...No I should be the one who's saying that.

"I should have visited you sooner but instead I let myself be scared of you when you know....about Jenny"He explained.

I scoff and smiled.

"Yugyeom-ah"

"Yes?"

Do I scare you that much?

I watched lower his head

of course he is...

"Don't be sorry"I said as I look down at the well made sandwich on my hand.

"I don't even deserve to see you after what I did to you...You should be away from me. You should hate me...I don't even deserve this ,with what I've done I don't even deserve to live" I said bitterly.

I spat the words that I have been longing to say to myself. The words that I have been longing to share and spread to others how pathetic and despicable I am.

" Yes you're right" I look at him forlorn.

"What you did to mom and to me is something unforgivable....I mean you trapped me in the basement for 3 days...I almost died and be eaten by rats back there....and mom she was rushed to the hospital and almost lost her face because of you beating her..." My heart ached to remember what I've done.

"But....

When you were gone...The house becomes quiet...I was glad you got what you deserve ,to rot in this mental institute but then....I suddenly thought that maybe I'm slowly becoming like you....I'm slowly loosing my mind because of anger....and how many times I promise mom that I would never be like you ....but then

I notice....I'm becoming like you because I let you suffer like this...That instead of helping you out...Instead of washing away that darkness that lingers on you.....

I'm just watching you suffer.." He lower his head feeling sorry.

"So I decided...To visit and stop me becoming like you...I decided to bring back my hyung even if other people say its suicide...even if other people curse at me....hate on me....That doesn't matter as long as I know who you are because those people don't

They don't know how kind and loving my brother is...And I'm here to stay and help you prove them they're wrong" He wiped away the tears that escaped his eyes...

I let mine  fall on my face...

I thought I was alone...

"Thank you"Is all I could mutter before a hand makes it way to my face and wipe away these tears.

Why did I hurt them?Why did I become so blind?

Why am I a monster?

"It's okay hyung...It's okay to be different...all of us is in the same game...Just different levels...dealing with the same hell with just different devils"

We both smiled.

A/N:Hi This is a little special chapter for you guys. I know all of us deals with our ugly sides and dark pasts but never forget that there will always be someone out there to help you out.
I hope your doing well and holding on
hope you guys liked it btw its the time where yugyeom visit Jackson.