Mayday [MarkSon]

Chapter 21

Pitiful

How days always fly fast when I wish it went slower.

"You know there's nothing we can do"

I thought so too.

"Hyung. I'm sorry really but its the head doctors who decided" Youngjae reminded me. It's not like I don't remember but I think he's reminding me to remember that there's no more hope.

"Youngjae" I finally spoke. My eyes focused at him.

"Just stop. I know" I said like rubbing salt on an open wound. Youngjae's worried eyes never left me.

"I know now...about Jaebum and Jackson" He suddenly said. I wasn't suprised of what he said. Sooner or later Jaebum will tell him about it.

"I didn't know Jackson had that kind of history. It was really never my business...But I tried to make Jaebum tell me...Finally he gave in and once I heard everything. I really underestimated you...

But...

Hyung w-what if Jaebum hyung is right or the head supervisor...What if Jackson really is an untameable monster?"

He whispered the last words but I heard everything. Now my trusted nurse assistant is doubting as well.
Wow....Im really alone

"B-But I'm always on your side always! I'm just saying thats all.." He apologized. I smiled weakly as I stare down at my black coffee who's color remind me of those orbs.

4 days If I have to count.
4 days left before his gone

What should I do?

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"And we are done" I said as I unwrap the sphygmomanometer from her arm.

"Thank you...It's been weeks and I feel a lot better" She said. I gave a small smile as I clean up my things.

Once I'm done. I witness her look at the garden of the hospital, finding something...

"What are you looking at?" I ask.

She then turn her attention to me.

"Oh it's just that man...What's his name?....Right! Jackson!" She exclaimed. His name was mention and my heart race up.

"You know him?" I questioned. A little bit suprised

She chuckled.

"Yes...We met at the garden a few weeks ago. We talked non-stop about the hospital. He never liked it here. He always make jokes around the nurses. Hahaha..That guy got some humor" She answered with a joyful chuckle. I smiled. I wish I saw those sides of Jackson.

"He even told me about this person. He won't tell me the name though.But the way he talks about that person. It seems like his drowning in sadness but at the same time with happiness...I don't know what happened but I just felt bad about it and I want to comfort him.
Its as if he wants something he can never have"

She said. I felt my heart once again ache with feelings. I smiled warmly. Covering up the pain.

"Sounds like he's a good person" I smiled. She smiled as well with fullness.

"Oh he is...But its been weeks since I last saw him" Her face down as she continue. "I hope his okay" Sadness filled the room and it makes me cry.

She holds my hand and I look up at her.

"I hope you could check on him. You're a great doctor. I know you will make him feel better. He needs someone like you" She said and she was filled with hope.

"I wish I could see him" I said and truly mean it. Although I act innocent I can never show how much I'm longing as well.

It's sad how you get more support from strangers than people you know.

I left the room after saying goodbye. The door closed and the heavyness opened. A tear once again escaped but my eyes felt dry. I felt empty. I feel nothing.

As I walk by pass Jackson's door. I always stopped like how I used to. Guilt ran up faster and I feel bad. I can't get through even in my consent they won't allow me since Jackson is not my patient anymore.

I watched the door guarded by nurses that chatted away not even bothering to know how is the patient.

While I was lost in my thoughts. My hand was gripped by someone and drag me away fast.

"Stop!"I said and once he did.I was shocked who it was.

"Jaebum?" I ask. He seem upset and angry.

"Why?" I ask. He looked at me harshly.

"I don't want to do this but...Youngjae pushed me" He said. I was confused and ask again what's his motive.

"I'm going to help you see Jackson"