Mayday [MarkSon]

Chapter 16

Autumn breeze greets my bedroom as it makes its way inside the open windows.

The sun's warm light hit my face and made me feel blissful

The comfort of the layers on my body hugged me and made me feels cozy.

Yesterday

These things made me think about yesterday.

I silently look up at my white ceilings thinking about yesterday.

I didn't smile ....I didn't laugh, instead
I was just there staring in daze.

This is not good.

This signals is not good.

I sat up and ready myself. I can't let myself be indulged with the confusion my heart makes and the constant thoughts of him my mind denies.

No...I shouldn't

Sunshines, warmth and comfort.

This isn't good. Not good.

I made my way to the kitchen. Take out some milk and bread.

I have to be normal and normal is good. Normal is Me.

Go to work

Treat the patient

And then go home.

That's normal and that is what I have to do.

But...

His eyes

His smile

His gaze

That is not normal...That is danger

After breakfast. I bathe then be on my working clothes.

I don't want to risk normal to danger

On my way to work. Inside the cab. I looked at the red umbrella feeling guilty.

Poor nurse she must have been so drenched...

How am I gonna return it? I don't even know which nurse it is from.

I released a sigh and look out the window. The weather is awfully good today. No evidence of yesterday's storm.

Tsk

"We're here" The driver said. I took out some cash and payed him. I got out of the vehicle after muttering a small thank you.

"Doctor.Tuan!" I heard someone shout and I turn to who he is.

Yugyeom?

I smiled. "Are you here to visit your brother?" I asked as he approached me.

He nodded. "I was so busy the past weeks but I'm free this day so I want to visit. Please tell me he is in a stable condition?" He said.

I chuckled.

"More than stable I guess" I replied.

"That's good news! were you just coming inside?" He ask. I nodded.

"Let's go" I mumbled. We walk inside the hospital. Nurses and other doctors greeted me.

I opened the door of my office.

"Uhmm sit down" I said and offered him the chair. He sat down.

"I'll just be in the bathroom for a sec. Is it okay?" I said and he nodded. I walked to my bathroom and closed the door.

There. Inside of that room.

I released my nervous sigh.

I'm not nervous because I'm seeing him. I'm not nervous because of him.

I'm nervous because I might once again fall in the feelings of something that doesn't make sense inside my own head.

I'm nervous that I might drown in the overflowing essence of his dangers.

I'm nervous of myself...

Splash

Remove it...Remove it now!

Splash Splash!

This is not right.Things are changing.
Things are getting different.

Things are getting strange.

But he is not a stranger?

I looked at myself.

But your feelings are?

I cupped my head.

Just go. Its not like you can avoid him. Your his doctor...

It's impossible to escape from him.

I dried my face and fixed myself.
With one last sigh I got out.

"Sorry to make you wait" I apologized. He stood up. "It's okay. Just take your time" Yugyeom said.

I smiled.

"Let's go see Jackson" I said

We walked through the hallways. I hid both of my hands in the pocket of my coat.

The nurse in charged open the door of Jackson's room. We both entered.

Jackson is once again looking out the window...

"H-Hyung" Yugyeom called softly. Jackson turned away from the windows and looked at his brother.

"Yugyeom!" He instantly dash his way to his brother and hug him tightly.

"I'm sorry" was the words Jackson keep on repeating to Yugyeom.

Tears falls

Forgiveness forgets once sins in their heart.

As I watched both of them. I can't help but smile. It's the first time that I met the true Jackson. The real one.

The one that is clumsy

The one that is sensitive but loving

The one that protect.

It was Jackson. It was him.

He was real.

I touched my chest and let the ache in. Let the joy in. Let the strange feelings in and burst it out inside of me. Let every part of me covers it.

Fine...You win.

I said internally as I look at Jackson.

I smiled.

I like you