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Chapter 9- It Smells In Here

Chapter 9- It Smells In Here
Chapter's song- Skin and Bones, Marcelo

"She smiles remembering his smile. A left dimple.
He waved and she blushed.
He was there to pick up the pieces of her broken heart, in the most delicate way no one could imagine."

Riley
The stench of the room almost made me choke.

How can people live in places like this for so long?

I felt claustrophobic and sick just sitting in here.

I've seen some terrible things throughout my life but this has ruined me in more ways then one could imagine.

Not that any of it has sunk in yet. I can't wrap my head around the word that has been driven into my head for the past year and a half. The same word over and over and over again. It still feels so surreal.

I feel some what guilty too. I should be the one in pain. I should be the one in the bed.

Being in this room always brings back memories. Memories of the screams, the cries, the sadness.

My head starts pounding and I decide if I stay here any longer I'll spew or even worse, pass out.

I grab my bag that's sitting beside the plastic bed and swing it back over my broad shoulders.

We are lucky that we even got the private room. Normally people with not as much money don't get the best accommodation, which is absolute bullshit.

Anyone in the situation my family is in right now deserves the best accommodation that can be provided. I mean it's the least they could do!

Money is the last thing on my mind at the moment especially with what's going on.

If it wasn't for Ryder and Jack I honestly don't know where my family would be at the moment.

Thank god Ryder can throw a mighty good punch and that Jack's father knows his way in law.

They are the only ones who know about all this. They are my best mates, my brothers and I trust them with not just my life, but my family's as well.

It frustrates me that I cannot give anything back to them. Especially when they are providing for me and my loved ones.

I shouldn't be going to school. I should be staying here and helping, just doing something. Although in these situations, I'm completely helpless. I can't do anything and I think that's what eats me up the most.

I can't do anything to help the people I love most.

School has always been my safe haven though. It's always been my escape through all this.

People stay away from me because they are scared of all the rumours that others have put around about me for years. Some may be true, others not so much.

Delroy High is the place I can hide behind a facade, I can just relax for a few hours- even if all that's going on in the back of my mind is eating away at me constantly.

THIS IS THE SMALLEST CHAPTER BUT ITS IMPORTANT!

AND ITS IN RILEYS POINT OF VIEW!
WHAT DO YOU THINK RILEY MEANS BY THIS CHAPTER??
Let me know what you thought of it ! :)