The Lost Souls (Emo/Punk Niall Horan Fanfic)

Chapter 7 - A Lesson Never Learned

*Nikita's P.O.V.*

Today the scale was the same as it has been, 99 pounds. I should've lost weight by now.

I stepped off of the scale, making it reset, before stepping on it again.

99 pounds.

How come I haven't lost weight? I know I've been eating an extra meal, but it's only a salad! Not even a salad with dressing or cheese or anything like that, just vegetables!

I sat down on my bed, feeling defeated. I can't stop eating dinner, Auntie Anne will notice. I can't stop eating lunch, Niall will get suspicious. There has to be another way...

Suddenly, I remembered something a few cheerleaders did back in Cheshire: purging.

I could eat whatever I wanted, actually taste foods I've avoided for years, all I had to do was force myself to vomit afterwards.

I got up from my bed and started to get ready for school, putting on the necklace Cher stole for me a few weeks ago.

After I was ready, I met Harry and Liam, who stayed over all weekend to play video games with Harry, downstairs.

Harry drove us to school, where he and Liam went to their class and I joined my friends, who were hanging out on the grass by a tree.

"Hey Nikita" they greeted.

"Hey guys" I replied, sitting on the grass between Melanie and Niall. "Why are you guys sitting out here?"

"We used to sit out here all the time, we haven't at all this year, so we figured we would sit out here again, for old times' sake" Louis replied, smoking a joint.

"It's nice out here"

"As nice as you could get on school property" Cher retorted.

"Behind the gym is pretty cool too, you can get away with a lot back there, like smoking a joint or having sex. It's great" Louis replied.

"You've had sex behind the gym?" I asked him.

"Yeah, so has most of the school"

"That's where I caught my ex cheating on me" Melanie told me.

"You should've seen what she did to his car! Completely destroyed it" Niall added.

Louis, Melanie and Cher are quite open when it comes to their vices, at least around their friends. It kind of makes me feel bad for hiding mine from them, but Niall does the same thing.

What is his vice? Yes, he may have anger issues, but doesn't he have any unhealthy coping mechanisms? I've never seen him do anything out of the ordinary, but he must if he's hanging around people like Louis, Melanie and Cher. People like me. Maybe that's it, maybe he's like me, hiding his vices from the world. I want to know what his vices are.

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Finally, it was time for lunch. The first lunch I've eaten in a long time that wasn't a salad. I feel excited, yet nervous. What if I can't make myself sick? What if I chicken out? I've never purged before.

"Pizza? You're not eating a salad today?" Niall asked me when I sat down at our usual lunch table.

"I was thinking and you were right when you said I should eat foods that'll fatten me up. I'm a little on the skinny side" I lied.

"Of course I'm right. What are you, like 90 pounds?" He joked, poking my side. I swatted at his hand before replying.

"99 pounds"

"Jesus! Did you stop eating after you turned 10?"

"Seriously! How did you get so skinny?" Melanie added.

"My mum didn't want a 'fat' daughter, so she would make sure I didn't overeat"

"So she made sure you were a skeleton?" Louis asked.

"Pretty much" I replied, taking a bite of my pizza. It was so good! I haven't had pizza in years! I think I'm going to love this whole 'bingeing and purging' thing.

After lunch, I made my way to the lavatory. Luckily, no one was in the loo, since everyone was still eating. I entered the stall, tickling the back of my throat, successfully making myself sick. Finally, I've found a way to enjoy food without getting fat.

I got my toothbrush and toothpaste that I brought with me out of my bag, brushing away any evidence before the bell rang for class.
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(A/N)

I'm so happy for Liam and Cheryl and their super cute baby! I'm also so happy Louis and Eleanor are back together!

Are you excited for Harry's new music?

💋 -TVo