A Truthful lie

Depression

I'm not hated
Nor am I loved
I'm not invisible
Nor am I seen
I'm not hiding
But I'm not trying
I'm just here
I exist
But I don't
I walk and I run
I see and hear
I listen to everything to nothing
To the sounds of the city
To the quiet of the country
I listen to my heart
I hear it pounding
Pushing against the cage of my chest
My mind thinks of things that even the most fearless man shall fear
I am alive
But not living
I'm awake but I'm asleep
I breathe but I drown
Things only people like me can understand
I smile when I hurt while others frown
I cry but not while others are around
I feel but only show what others seem to find astound
I'm the happy girl
The one that smiles all the time
I never allow anyone to see me other then alright
But when I go home
My pillow is drenched in salt and water
Only to go out again with a smile unaltered
But when I do explain
People pretend to understand
Depression something deeper then who I am

Thus is the second one please give me feed back.