The Forbidden Fruit ( Nalu )

.Chapter Thirteen.

As Natsu held his hand over mine everything became clear. 
I was in love with him. In love with my brother.

My heart race quickened.  My face flushed crimson. The hand that he held felt hot and I quickly pulled it away.

"Luce?" Natsu asked concern was evident in his voice. I felt him look over at me and I couldn't handle it.

"I- I have to go." I stuttered as tears once again filled my eyes.

I quickly turned around and ran inside.  My first reaction was to lay on the futon and hide under the blanket.  I pulled the blanket up over my head and rolled up into a ball and let my tears fall. 

Why did I have to realise!?
Why did it have to be him!?
Why Natsu!?
How long have I felt this way about him!?

Whilst I laid there crying and pondering I didn't realise that somebody had walked in. 

"Lucy."

Of course it's him.
Natsu......

"Lucy. Tell me what's bothering you."

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I heard his footsteps slowly get closer.

"Lucy."

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All I could hear was his voice flowing through my mind. The sound of his breathing. His footsteps.  I can picture the worried look on his face,  and the sadness hidden in his eyes. His smell. The shape of his lips....

No I need to stop!!!!
He's my brother!!!! 
I can't... I can't feel these things. I can't!
I'm not aloud to love him!

"Luce...."

I bit my lip as hard as I could to try to stop myself from thinking about him. To stop myself from answering him....
My lip began to bleed but I felt no pain.

I could hear Natsu as he sat down beside me. I could just picture him pouting with his legs crossed and his head rested in his hand in a frustrated yet cute manner. 

The thought made me smile.

"I know you're not asleep Lucy so stop ignoring me......" He said childishly.

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"Hmph. Why won't you just look at me? Or talk to me? Why are you ignoring me?"

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"Well I'm not leaving until you talk to me!" He shouted stubbornly. 

I couldn't help but feel happiness from his words. And that bothered me.  That really bothered me.

"Fine then.  It looks like I'm staying here for the night!" He decided.  I heard him lay down in the futon beside me and make himself comfortable. 

I tried my hardest not to giggle at his cute stubbornness.
Awh damn it... I really want to look at him.....
Just a peak won't hurt right?

No.  I need to stop this.  I'm not supposed to feel this way.  I know that... I do..... It's just so hard not too.  It's so hard when he is the only one that makes me feel this way.  The only one who can make me smile so brightly and cry so passionately. To laugh so happily and to love so deeply...... He is the only one.  So how am I supposed to stop? How could I possibly stop these feelings?

I don't know what to do.
What would he think if he knew?
No.
Why am I even thinking that? Obviously he would be disgusted.  He would hate me.... And then he would leave me again....