13:13 Ineffable

13:2

13:2

"Not all heroes wear capes,
Some just carry bags."

You were always there,
Lending your hands bare,
Even you're too shy you will always dare,
Just to show how much you care.

Whenever I got a heavy thing on my back, you were always there, lifting it for me.

You were always there.

"A girl like you is worth the wait. Surrender, not a choice."

I have seen how your eyes become sad,
When they asked you if I say yes, my bad!
I haven't given it to you not because you're not rad,
I am glad,
That you came and show me that you're not just a lad.

But.

There is always a but.

I have monsters inside me,
Whispering!
Shouting!
They are creeping inside my brain,
Eating up my hopes,
Turning my thoughts into a nightmare,
They are swallowing every bit of ecstasy I have inside,
They keep on saying that you will only leave me too.

You will only leave me too.

That one day,
You'll wake up giving up on me.

One day.

And I cried,

"I hope you won't give up on me."

I hope.

You answered,

"Don't worry I am."

You're playing with my hands that time, and I said,

"Your hands are bigger than mine."

You replied,

"And your hands are smaller and soft, but you know why? It is because we can exactly do this.."

Through the empty sides of my fingers,
you fill out the spaces,
we intertwined our hands,
we went out of that room holding each other's hands.

And that was the first time that someone holds me like he never wanted me to go away from him like you never want to let me go.

Let me go.

If I only knew, I would never let go of your hands since that day.

"Every second that I'm with you feels like hours."

And I want to tell you that every second that I'm with you feels like an eternity. I hope it wouldn't end.

End.

"Thank you for the chance you have given me."

Thank you for coming into my life.

Thirteen days right after you asked me. In the middle of a rainy night and morning, I wrote the answer.

I was waiting for you to come to the church but until the mass ended, you never came.

I cried and asked God to give me a sign. I asked for a star even if it is impossible. As I look outside the window of the jeepney, I saw a lantern, a star-shaped lantern.

The morning came, you say sorry, you said tried going but things around you didn't allow you.

It's okay. It's not yet too late.

Before we part our ways at a grocery store, I gave you a small note.

By the evening,

You posted:
"I have received the three-letter answer!"

Even if I am not seeing you at that time, I hope I can make you happy.

By the time I choose to love,
By the time I choose to commit,
By the time I choose to face another tomorrow with you,
It is also the time,
I welcomed a great pain.

I was here and you're sitting on the other side of the seesaw.
We go up and down, but we will always fall on the same ground.

We will always fall on the same ground.

Fall on the same ground.

Ground.

That's what I have thought.