13:13 Ineffable

13:1

13:1

"When I see your smile, Tears run down my face, I can't replace~🎶"

7 billion people in the world,
Some of them are lost,
Some of them are already found.

Found.

Found by someone who can make them feel that they are already home, that there's no need to go to different places because they are already home.

Home.

Home is not a place but a feeling.

I don't know if I was lost but since you came, I felt like you found me and I found you.

We found each other in the middle of being lost in this chaotic world.

"And now that I'm strong I have figured out how this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul~🎶"

As I sing the song Your Guardian Angel by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, you were looking at me.

Like I was the only person inside the room.

I was the only one you see.

I was the only one you hear.

I was the only one.

I never thought that it would happen,
We're just dust in the universe,
Floating in circles,
Going with the flow,
And suddenly,
We unexpectedly collide.

It started with your glances at me and how I look back.

With the smile I give and the smile, you return.

Our simple conversations, the laughter, and your little gestures of hitting me with your palm.

It's annoying.

But since it started, my day wasn't complete without it.

When we shared under the same umbrella, and you put your arm around me.

It is the best feeling I couldn't explain to myself.

But.

There is always a but.

I am not yet really sure about you.

I have doubts.

I have fears.

I am scared.

Eventually in the end just like other people I put so much trust and love before, you will leave me.

You will leave me.

It is the 4th day of the last month of the year when you gave me something that changes my whole life and dig the depths of my strength and fear.

"Hi, in case you still don't know. Yup, I'm in love with you."

In the depth of being nowhere to go,
an ineffable kind of emotion comes.

"I don't know when, how, and why. I just did."

It is so unexpected,
Just like how time can change things.

"At first, I thought it was puppy love. But then it was not."

That if this was a sweet dream,
Please don't wake me up.

"I was thinking of the word 'us'. What if 'us', could it be 'us', an 'us'."

Me and you,
But 'us' is what we call a story.

"Then I thought maybe we could happen. And then a sign came in out of nowhere. A man wearing the 'Just do it' T-shirt. I was surprised because I was just about to go out."

A sign came out of nowhere,
Follow it or ignore it.

"Then our classmates start making fun of us. I don't know about you but it felt awesome and wonderful."

Awesome and Wonderful,
It is nothing when there is no 'us'.

"Remember I ask you what things do you, love? And you ask the same question. You were asking what's 'tu'. Well in Arabic it means 'you'."

Cause the first time you bid the magic words,
I absent-mindedly respond to it.

"Then our dreams, you said you want to take pictures around the world. While I want to learn all the dishes of the world. And why I don't want to travel alone. Because I need someone to be with, to share the beauty of the world and yes, that is you."

Voglio viaggiare per il mondo anche con voi.

"I want to know how you feel about me. What other things do you like? What's your favorite food?"

I did show you the mirror of my reflection.

"And that time when we connect lyrics in Twitter. One of the best feelings I have ever had."

One of the best feelings you ever had.
Is it real?

"So every day, I fall deeper and deeper. Until I come out of a plan. Sorry for making such quick decisions. I want to know you more."

In my depths,
Hope you did survive.

So you made a plan,
The 5-day plan you have made,
The gift,
My favorite song,
The story,
And that day you asked me,

"Will you be mine?"

"And I know I'll find deep inside me, I can be the one~🎶"

I am an unfinished masterpiece,
Through the splashes of the black and white ink,
You shower me with colors I never expected,
You came,
At the moment I thought I should only be with myself.