Carl Grimes x (girl) Reader

Everyone is alone out here.

note: okay so i plan on rewriting this entire story minus the last few chapters (probably will just do small edits to those) i actually already did it but it didnt update for some reason so i lost all of my work.So look forward to that!
update: i did update a good few! i still have a few to go but that's on the to do list lol.
Y/n pov

Numbness isn't exactly a new emotion for someone growing up in the apocalypse. I feel nothing as I stab another mindless walker in the head. I have been with my sister since this all started. We belonged to some groups every once and a while but we never stayed long, every group we found had too many vices. It's me and my sister against the world. She and I couldn't be more different, but we were together through it all, the apocalypse, our emotions, and anything else. Nothing could stop us, except death of course. Although we had escaped so many close calls that even that was questionable.
I was so deep in my thoughts I didn't even notice her calling me quietly, I felt movement behind me turned while raising my knife to see one right on me, stabbing it quickly while hearing my sisters quiet cry turn to screaming once the body drops I see three of those things surrounding her. I jumped into action stabbing them all in a matter of moments. We looked at each other and sighed, she smiled lightly.
Right as a walker bit into her side. I scream, pushing her out of the way as I stab the, what I see now, child dead one. I kneeled down next to her crying slightly and I knew she wasn't gonna make it from the area of the bite.
" Please I can't do this without you, I need you." I said gasping for air.
"Y/n, I was bound to go. I'm not made for this world. But you are, you can survive this. You are the smartest girl I know, the bravest, the strongest, but also the sweetest. Don't let this world change you." She told me as I could see the life draining from her eyes I laid my head on her slow breathing chest.
" Please don't go. Please" Then I heard her take her last, rattling breath. I laid next to her debating my own life. I can always just wait until she comes back. She'll kill me then Or I could just- I put my gun to my head. Everything is so fragile.
"Hey! What are you doing?! Are you insane?" I opened my eyes to see a boy about my age with long brown hair, a sheriff's hat on, and beautiful blue eyes. He ran towards me and pulled the gun out of my hand and offered his hand to me, I looked away from him and look back to my sister, tears starting to fall again, she's getting pale. "Look. I know this world is bad, we lose anyone and everyone, but this is not the way out." He said pleading while he crouched down to be face level with me while I was sitting on the ground next to the soon to be reanimated corpse of the last family member I have.

"Why does it even matter? Everyone is alone out here." I said coldly, keeping my eyes on the corpse, my face covered in blood, tears, and dirt.

" Come with me, then you won't be alone." I looked at him with confusion wondering why he's so willing to help me. He stands up and offers his hand again, "We can't stay here much longer. We have to go. If you want me to do it I will." I furrow my eyebrows before taking his hand, feeling as though he might be trustworthy but in this world you never know.
"I would usually toughen up and do it but-" He cut me off, "I understand. Walk to the road and wait for me , okay?" I walked towards the road which was only about a 20 feet away. He joins me shortly after I make it to the road, I turn around for one last look and see a blanket over her. I nod slightly, glad she doesn't have to fight anymore.

" I don't even know your name." He rubbed the back of his neck awkwardly. " oh yeah, I'm Carl." He began walking and looked back at me, silently asking me to follow. I walk after him, allowing him to lead the way with me a few feet behind him.

We walked for a while, finally making it to his camp. I stop and stand while looking at the tall steel walls in awe. I see a man peak over the fence and hear a whistle, shortly after the gate begins to open to reveal a chain fence behind the steal. A woman opens the inside fence and I follow Carl inside, suddenly feeling very out of place. I look around and hear the woman whisper to Carl. "does your dad know you brought a someone back?" I turn my head towards them to see him shake his head no. Carl keeps walking and I attempt to follow him but my vison suddenly starts to fade. I stop in my place and try to breathe deeply, knowing what was happening. I started passing out a few days ago, nutrition deficiency effecting every part of my body. I stood in place trying to fight it off I hear Carl say my name, so I open my eyes but before I can respond my vision fades out and I hit the ground. Hearing Carl yelling for me slowly quiet as I fully lose consciousness.