My Band Mate (Levin X Reader)

Chapter 39

Levin
I gulped and scratched the back of my neck nervously and couldn't even keep eye contact with her beautiful blue eyes...

"Levin... What is it?" She said once again.

I signed and looked at her unsure.

"Y-Y/N um... uh-

I CANT SAY IT! IT'S TOO DIFFICULT!

"Levin?..." She said as she looked at me innocently. I felt a sweat tear calm down my forehead. Oh my Irene why are you so cute?!

She titled her head sideways confused and waiting for my response. My heart was beating quickly as I felt like I could die right here.

"What I wanted to say was that..." I don't want to break her heart like he did in the past! But I also don't want to say it because it'll even more break her heart more! But if I say it later than she'll-

"LEVIN!" She yelled my name. Gosh so impatient... I guess I'm taking forever to say a few words... Still difficult.

"Um uh... B-Bryan... He-

"Oh hello babe~" I heard an annoying voice speak. Grr...

"Oh hey Bryan!" Y/N said and smiled. Bryan gave her a small, short peck. Lasted about 0.7 seconds... I cringed at the peck. I could be the one kissing her right-

AHHH LEVIN STOP IT! GET YOURSELF TOGETHER MAN!

I slapped myself and had weird looks from Bryan and Y/N. I nervously smiled, pretended nothing happened.

"Wait a second Bryan. Levin, what were you going to tell me?" She asked me.

Because you're with him... I can't tell you...

"Uh... T-That-" I had a glare from him. I turned my eyes back to her. "That... the reason why I haven't been waiting for you was because I had a lot of projects. Now... I uh gotta go over there." I said and pointed to the school direction.

"Do you want to walk with us?" Y/N asked me.

YES OF COURSE I WANT TO BUT WITH THAT JERK OF COURSE NOT!

"N-No thank you. I have to help a teacher with something." I laughed nervously.

"How about lunch?... I don't see you sitting with us at anymore."

I already told you you stupid little cutie... I don't want to endure because of that person..

"Ive been busy lately..." I lied.

"Maybe I can help you with it. Bryan can too." She said smiling brightly.

I WANT TO JUST BE ALONE WITH YOU NOT WITH HIM!

"No it's alright. I can do it myself." I faked laughed.

"Oh okay then..." She said looking down. "How about after school?... Are you-

I just can't bear to be with you... I want to tell you I love you but I cant because of him... It makes me hurt inside to have him as your stupid boyfriend...

"I'm sorry..." I said and took of running. "I NEED TO HELP MY TEACH!" I said as I ran.

My heart is pounding fast but it's also hurt... Why can't I just tell her?.. So simple yet so hard..

I stopped running after I gone a distance that she couldn't see me.

A tear escaped my eye. I can't hold it any longer. I still have till what?... 8 till school starts... I'll just go to my little spot...

I went into the school gates and into the school building. Students were outside and some were inside. I just can't handle it anymore! I want them to break up and I know it's awful for me to say! But it's true! He's cheating one her and I can't say to!

Tears ran down my face and I cried softly so no one could hear me.

I walked to the cafeteria and into the little music room that no one used. I went into the closet and closed the door.

I put my back against the door and put my knees to my chest and hugged it.

Why does it have to be you?.. Out of all the people in this world YOU?!

I love you... you make me happy but also make me cry...

Even if we can't be together because of him, I'm happy at least you're part of my life. I just need you to be happy in order for me to be happy right?...

Why are you stuck in my head?! You're like part of my brain now. I just can't...

...Anymore

I broke down in tears and tears fell down in the closet like an idiot.

Maybe I should let them be... But that would make me an awful person since I didn't tell her. I'll tell her after school then...