The Rejected Alpha

Chapter 11

Let's hope this works out:)

Recap:

"I hugged Darcy and she told me the direction back to Zack's pack. She gave me the location of her cabin and I made my way back taking in the wonderful rays of sunlight, only my heart felt warmer and warmer the closer I got to Zack's pack. The moment I was within a 100-meter range of the border, a ground-shaking howl was heard."
 

My heart pounded against my chest, gradually increasing in pace with every step I took closer. My heart ached. It ached for my mate. 

I had to remind myself I was only here to give him another chance, Darcy gave me hope in a future with him, despite his cruel actions. The moon goddess put me with him for a reason so I took steady steps reaching the front door. I could already smell his scent from just an inch within the door. Walking up to the door I carefully raised my hand to the door handle.  

I hesitated. 

I was scared, excited, hopeful, and nervous. So many mixed emotions were flowing through my mind and body. I could hear my heart beating in my head. Jess was clawing at every inch of my being to step in. 

I opened the door and slowly walked in. There stood the man who brought out the vulnerability in me, the man who made me cry, the man who hurt me, the man who looked distraught, tired, and weak. Under his eyes were dark circles as if he hadn't slept in days, his hair ruffled but enough to enhance his features. His chest heaving with every breathe he took, his dark blue eyes met mine. Sorrow and anguish written on his face and visible in his eyes. 

Yet his appearance still managed to take my breath away. 

He strode towards me and stopped just inches away. I could smell regret and alcohol radiating off of him. He rose his hand to meet my cheek but flinched at the mere touch of my skin. He stepped away. 

"Why did you come back?" His voice raspy and rugged. 

"I wanted to give us another chance, i-it's just-" 

"You deserve better."  He immediately responded back

"I want to try. Please" 

"Why, I'm only going to hurt you. That's all I've ever done since you became my mate." 

"Don't act like this is all your fault, I've been such a brat. I screwed up the moment we met and I was too quick to judge." 

"Elena I hurt you and I'm only going to hurt you, it's just my life is so complicated and I can't give you what you want in a mate. Your life is just better off without me." 

I couldn't take this, I was the one who ruined everything from the beginning and all because I was scared of having a mate all because I couldn't get over what Rafael did. I had 2 fucking years to get over it and I didn't. Because I was selfish and pathetic. I know I had reason to feel what I did but I never gave him a chance. 

"No, how can you say that and not feel as hurt as I do?" I was sticking to what Darcy said and kept going. 

I stepped forward and covered any distance we had between us. What remained between us was just an inch away, yet my whole body yearned to be even closer. I wanted to be engulfed by his warmth, I wanted to feel complete. 

His eyes never left my eyes for a second. His irises turning from grey to their enchanting blue colour. How could I resist such a fine specimen? Every feature on him was so finely detailed as if sculpted by the goddess herself. 

I lifted my hands to meet his face, my heart pumping faster by the minute. My hands burning with the sparks from our contact. His irises changed to gold. His eyes only sending signals of mixed emotions.