Secrets

Chapter 2

4 days later

It was finally the day of dads funeral, I had let my tears fall freely down my face for the last 4 days but I still can't seem to stop crying.

Rob has been trying to help both Mum and me but when you've got 2 crying messes it must be hard to deal with. Rob has been trying to comfort me but I would always tell him to go to Mum. She hasn't came out of her room for the past few days as well.

I stood in front of my mirror and looked at the lace black dress it had long sleeves that came down to my wrists. It was fitted at the top but flowed into a skater skirt at the end and came to a stop just above my knee.

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I stood in between my mum and Rob throughout the funeral. I had let the tear steam down my face when the coffin was lowered into the ground and watched as all of my family and my parents friends cried as well.

I hated it! The glances of pitty and sorrow from everyone there. The way they spoke to me was like when I was five and my pet dog died.

I was meant to go to the funeral tea afterwards but i didn't want to be around everyone. So I went home and waited for Rob and my mum to return.

At home, I changed into a pair of black ripped skinny jeans and a maroon hoodie which was way too big on me and then sat on my bed and watched Netflix.

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"Eira , Eira you need to wake up" a soft voice said

"Hmm..." I mumbled back

"Come on get up, you haven't eat all day" I slowly started to recognise the voice as Rob's.

"But I'm not hungryyy!!" I whined, like a 7 year old

"Come on Eira, it's not healthy to not eat" he told me and I felt the bed dip as he sat down. "You need to eat, you haven't eaten properly for days. I know your sad but dad would want you to try and be happy"

"I know, I miss him though." I said as I slowly sat up.

"Come on let's go, theres pizza on the table."

At the word pizza I jumped up and ran into the kitchen, I could hear Rob faintly laughing in the background.

As Rob and I were stuffing our faces with pizza, mum walked down the stairs and into the kitchen. Her brown hair which was the same shade as mine was hanging limply around her face, and her normal bright blue eyes were blood-shot and puffy. These past few days mum look like she has aged a few years. Her usual slim figure was even thinner and her clothes were hanging off her more than usual.

"Hey, mum" I said and watched as a few crumbs came flying out my mouth.

She shook her head but had a small smile on her face. "So sweetie I was thinking..." she started "how would you like to get away from the house for a while?"

"Sure, I wouldn't mind going on a small holiday to clear my head." I replied

"Oh...uh...didn't mean a holiday" she said and looked at the ground.

"Well, what do you mean?" I asked and looked at Rob "do you know?" I questioned him.

His blue eyes flickered to my brown ones but he didn't answer me and became particularly interested in the slice of pizza that he had in his hands.

"I...I mean...boarding school" mum stuttered.

"WHAT!?!" I shouted as I stood up and my chair flew back.

"Sweetie please calm down"

"What! No I will not calm down! First dad dies and now you want to send me away!" I pretty much screamed.

"It's not like that I just think it would be better if you left the village for a bit. You and your dad have so many memories here, I don't want you to be sad!"

"You can't say much about being sad, you locked yourself in yours and dads room until this morning." I knew it was a low blow but I was angry.

I watch as her face fell and tears started to come out of her eyes. "I-I am j-just trying to help you!!!" She barely whispered back.

"if you really want to ship me off to a new place, do it. Because quite frankly I don't care anymore, it's completely obvious you don't care about me and I'll be glad to get away from you!" I basically screamed at her.

I knew my words hurt her and I probably shouldn't have said them. I've always been a good kid I've never answered back to them but I honestly didn't regret what I said and you can call me a horrible daughter, but I think I know what I need better than her.

"Come on Eira calm down!" Rob said trying to touch my shoulder to pull me into a hug.

I flinched back "DONT TOUCH ME!!" I screamed. " I'll be glad to get away from both of you, I trust you Rob, what happened to telling each other everything?!"

"E, come on don't be like this." Rob said, he would always call me E when I was angry or sad.

"You didn't deny it, how long have you known? Guessing mum decided she wanted to get rid of one of us, you know because she's the only one that upset! Well guess what? She not! I lost my dad you know" I said and turned to look at her, "stop acting like you the only one that upset. For the last few days, i haven't stopped crying and the only person who cared was rob. Yeah, I get you loved dad but sorry to break it to you he's gone! You could have at least cared about me enough to come and check on me but no you didn't! You were to selfish to check on your own daughter."

"Sweetie, I-I..."

"No! I tried to come see if you were okay but the only person you let in your room was you son and I could clearly see that I didn't matter to you!"

With that, I stormed out of the kitchen and out the door. The last thing I saw was my mum break down in tear and could hear Rob shout my name but I didn't care, I wasn't listening all I wanted to do was get out of the house.

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Hope you enjoyed this chapter. I kind of feel bad Eira, do you?

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