She called today.
I was ready to take a nap and she called. The bright screen with her beautiful face, and the two buttons, one green and one red. I hit the green one and we were talking.
But she seemed different.
She then explained to me how we were better as friends, how she isnt ready for a relationship, how shes having personal problems in her home life, how she wished things were different.
I should have seen it coming. She has a reputation. She dates until bored, then simply throws them away. I knew this, but I took the chance. I thought maybe things would be different, better.
No.
I should have seen it coming but it still caught me by surprise. I had to accept it, pretending she didnt affect me, pretending things were all fine.
They aren't.
This girl. This girl I know, I thought I liked, maybe even loved, she used me and threw me away into the garbage with the others.
She's telling me she's sorry, she still likes me, she still wants to date me if only she could. I accepted that. I can live with that. It happens. I was at peace, until I hear she told my best friend earlier that day that she doesnt love me, hell she doesnt like me.
Crushed.
Crushed is the only proper way to describe my feelings. I thought I had finally found someone only to realize I was played.
She'll never see this, but if she does I want her to know exactly what she did to me.
I've been crushed.
