Living Hell

Chapter 3

I woke up and my arm was in pain
"Ow" it hurts so much but I can deal with it. I slowly get up and grab my school top, jumper, ripped jeans, blue converse and bonds socks and jumped into the shower. As I run my fingers through my hair I see my wrist. I think of what people had said the other day. I washed my hair and got dressed. I ran downstairs and grabbed a few grapes then went off to school.

As I left the house I saw a girl walk towards me. As she gets closer she pushes me, grabs the grapes from my hand and threw them on the ground. "Fatty" the girl yells and runs off to her friends. They look so happy.

*time skip to school*

As I arrive at school I see some girls talking and laughing. I look down at my stomach and think to myself "ugh I'm so fat. Maybe she was right."
I quickly run to a bin and throw out my lunch. I won't be needing that. The first bell goes and I run to class.

Class starts and I get out a pen and paper to jot down some notes. A girl throws a piece of paper at me and I unfold it
"Nobody likes you here, you're ugly, fat and worthless" is what it read. Maybe their right I think to myself. I feel around in my pocket and find the blade. I run to the toilets with my bag.
I drop my bag and get out my blade. I run it over my wrist a few times. I see the blood drip down and I start to cry. I pull down my sleeve, throw the blade into my bag and run home as fast as I can.

As I enter the house my mums boyfriend throws something at me. I run out into the garden, grab a rose and run to my dads grave.
I enter the cemetery and walk to my dads gravestone. I place the rose down and start to cry. I say a few words whilst sobbing.
"Daddy. I'm so sorry for what I've done. Please forgive me it's just that so many people are mean to me at school daddy. I hate school and I know these marks will be permanent but I don't care. It's my way of removing the mental pain these people put on me. Daddy I don't want to be here anymore. Mums boyfriend is always getting drunk with her and they throw things at me. Her boyfriend raped me the other night. I still have the bruises. The shower is almost completely stained red. Daddy I want to be with you. I want to be with you again. Daddy I love you" at this point I'm crying so much people have stopped and looked at me. But I don't care anymore. All I want is to be with my dad. I sleep at the cemetery...