You're still the one

Chapter 17: Someones feelings

Rin ran back to where the club was and found Asuna, sadly looking at her phone, just like he found her the day he confessed to her....

Rin called out to her, "Asuna senpai!" Asuna immediately turned around. Her head was hurting from the alcohol finally wearing off and the tears she had been crying. She was blushing and she cried more when she saw Rin. "I-I'm such an idiot! P-please Rin don't l-leave me." Rin hugged Asuna tightly and said, "Don't call yourself that." Asuna hugged Rin back tightly and said, "N-no! It's the t-truth! But, p-please before you make any decision l-let me t-tell you my side of the story..." Rin gently brushed her hair with his fingers and said, "I want to know what happened from you. Why were you in the bathroom with someone else?" Asuna pushed Rin away and looked him directly in the eyes. "Will you believe me Rin?" Asuna asked him with such seriousness, Rin couldn't look anywhere else. "I-I do believe you Asuna..." she was relieved to hear him say that. She thought maybe he wouldn't but, hearing him say those words comforted her because, now she could tell him the truth without hesitation, and know that he wouldn't doubt her. "Rin..." she said in a strong voice. This was a new voice, one Rin had never heard before, it was filled with power as if, from her lips a lie couldn't escape. "Rin...the drinks I had made me see you in Brandon. His hair was dyed just like yours, and he made his voice a bit more husky to match the way you sound. I swear to God it was never my intention to hurt you, or do what I did to Brandon. I will tell you one thing though." Rin nodded as he saw the sincerity in her eyes and responded with, "Tell me then..." she held Rin's hand and said, "I felt like it wasn't you in the bathroom with me because, it wasn't your hands touching me. Your hands are always cold, and you don't kiss as bad or roughly. The alcohol was making me forget all those detail though. I promise you Rin, nothing more than kissing went on in that stall." He looked at Asuna and gently caressed her cheek which had small tears roll down it. He could see her honesty, and he could see her desperately hoping he would stay with her. Love is a complicated thing but, when you truly love someone, you can look beyond their mistakes, and forget they ever even made them. Rin loved Asuna, there was no doubt of that in his heart. So he hugged her and whispered in her ear, "Asuna, tonight never happened." She was unsure of what those words meant and she said, "W-what do you mean?" Rin again told her in a whisper, "Let's forget everything about tonight. It was nothing but a misunderstanding and, I don't plan on bringing it up ever again." Asuna hugged Rin back and gently patted his back and said, "Thank you Rin but, I have a few questions that I want answers to, before we move on..." Rin grabbed her hand and said, "Let's go to my place and you can ask me there." She blushed and followed as Rin tugged on her hand.

When they got home Rin asked Asuna, "Do you want a water for your headache?" Asuna was a bit surprised he knew she had a headache when she hadn't mentioned anything but, she remembered Rin had drank himself and was probably assuming she had a headache like him. "Yes please." Asuna walked around the house as she began to see very few pictures of Rin when he was young, "Hey Rin, how come you don't have lots of pictures in your house?" Asuna asked. Rin came back with the glass of water, handing to Asuna and said, "Well if you must know, my mom doesn't like pictures around the house." Asuna decided not to ask any further questions about that. Rin started twirling Asuna's hair and said, "Senpai, you said you had questions and you wanted answers. So what exactly do you want to ask?" Asuna nodded and said, "I-I have a f-few things I want to know....one of them would be that, I want you to tell me about Bella and why did Jenny tell me she saw her dancing up on you at the club..." Rin nodded and responded, "This is going to be a long story, how about we sit on the couch." Asuna took a seat next to Rin as he began explaining to her the story....

Bella's p.o.v.
Love....it's really complicated, and scary. You're probably wondering why this is being told in my point of view and not Rin's but, it's because everyone seems to hate another person without knowing how they truly feel about the hate, or even why they did their actions. You probably just think I'm a whore trying to ruin Rin and Asuna's happiness but, why is that the only thing you judge me off? I want this chance to tell you how I felt about Rin, and how all this led me to do what I've done up until now. Rin was so young when I met him. Even back then he was really hot and tall and yet, there was the cute childlike side that only I knew. That's right, only I had seen it but, he found someone else to share it with as well I guess. He was so close to me, back then I was the only one he trusted, the only one who knew the real him. I was a brat to him, I took advantage of everything about him. Our relationship was nothing but pleasure and sharing our hurt feelings. The day we met I won't forget what he told me, "H-hi my name is Rin." I smiled at him gently and said, "My name is Bella. It's nice to meet you cutie." He slightly pouted and said, "Don't call me cute..." it made him even more adorable. Back then I didn't really think about how much time I was spending with him. We'd be together all day and go our separate ways in the night, I had dates and he'd go home and wait till I texted him that I was home. Hours and hours we'd spend talking or texting, like the conversations never had an ending. He was special to me but, at the time I didn't realize it. The day we had sex for the first time I won't forget what he told me, "It's m-my first time doing this....so sorry in advance, for the inexperience..." his cheeks went completely red. I caressed his face and kissed him and told him, "I love the fact that I'm your first~" maybe that's when he started to think my feelings for him were love. I didn't really think about how I was using the sting word 'love', I just said it emptily like it was something you could say, without truly knowing the power of emotions in that one four lettered word. At the time, I was getting guys all over me left, and right. I didn't want to commit to just one guy. Some offers were too good to pass up so, I never tied myself down, even after all the times Rin asked me to just be his. I got bored of that town, I got bored of the guys there. When Rin confessed to me it ruined the fun I had with him. I knew he loved me but, I didn't want to hear him say it though because, he'd just be another guy that I'd fuck and now had to let go. So I did what I felt the need to do, and ran away from my feelings, I didn't want to accept that I really did love Rin. I didn't want to tie myself down because, I knew if I did date Rin and someone else came along then, I would hurt him just because I couldn't stay faithful. I didn't want to hurt him any longer so I left that small town. My cousin Brandon always kept me updated though. He'd tell me about Rin, who he was dating that week, the rumors that begun to spread. Even though I left, I couldn't exactly cut my ties with him completely. I heard all the names they had given him like, 'over used boy toy' or, 'whore' and even, 'fuck boy' all names I had never heard to describe Rin when I was around. The rumor that started to peek my curiosity was the one my cousin told me about this girl named 'Asuna', "There's a rumor that Asuna fucked Rin, and not only that but, apparently Rin is getting attached to her. I asked her out today and she said yes but, Rin didn't seem happy about it." I felt threatened, like my place in Rin's heart was going to be knocked down so I told my cousin, "Make sure you keep a close eye on her. I don't want Rin getting any closer to her. I'll be going back in town in about three days..." that's when my whole plan started. I was reminded of something we did together. Maybe Rin doesn't remember anymore but, I still do because it was something special even though at the time I didn't tell him. It was the time when Rin and I wrote letters, filled with a wish, and went to the beach. We had seen it in a cliché love movie and wanted to do it ourselves. So we wrote our wishes, put it in a glass bottle and threw the bottles into the ocean. He gently kissed me after as we saw the bottles float away being taken by the waves. My wish was written down exactly like this, "My one wish. Is that I can realize what love is. And when I do find it, I hope the person loves me back because, I don't want to be left alone. I swear if this wish comes true, I will do anything and everything to not hurt them and be faithful." After I sent that message in the ocean, Rin confessed. At the time I was so selfish that I couldn't follow through my wish and stay faithful. It took me one year away from Rin to realize my feelings, just to find out his feelings for me didn't exist anymore....I was such a fucking bitch to him...I-i could have been with him....but, now I h-have nobody. His smile with her, The way he laughs with her, The sincerity in his eyes when he looks at her, It's all things I wish he did to me. I realize I lost my chance and that I was too late. That's why tonight, when he said,  "I love her. I'm sorry I couldn't be the one for you..." I broke down in tears. What seemed to be slowly fading, completely drifted away. His words to me hurt, and I really didn't mean to get in the way of his happiness. He was right after all, I guess, when you love someone, if it means your pain you'd much rather see them happy. That's why these are my last words because, I won't get in their way any longer. With no denial. I love Rin and I will probably always have a place of love for him but, I know deep down she's much better for him. She's everything I'm not. She loves him, and he loves her. I hope they can both be happy together. My wish continues floating in the ocean where we kissed that day but, maybe one day like it did for him, this pain will completely fade away...

Someone said they 'low key' liked Bella so, I decided to give Bella a proper goodbye. I know it wasn't much about Rin and Asuna but, I still hope you all like this chapter! -Amaya senpai~