Bellarke Oneshots and short stories😉

Aftermath

Bellamy and Clarke stood in Polis side by side, moments after they had just defeated Ali and the city of Light; however, neither one of them felt like celebrating.

Clarke, had just lost a lover- Lexa: murdered when it should have been Clarke...she kept thinking.

Bellamy, on the other hand, was some what responsible for his sisters lovers death...or so he also thought.

The exact same thing was going through their minds when they stood side by side:  they are monsters.

" You okay??" Bellamy asks despite dealing with his own problems. Clarke had tried to distract herself by watching some people clear up with some of the mess, all of their friends were either helping out or still in the tower.

" I am." She says after moments of thinking.

I couldn't have said anything worse, especially to Bellamy of ALL people. He knows when I'm Lying- she thought to herself as the words slipped from her mouth.

" You don't have to lie to me Clarke." He says putting an arm on her shoulder, forcing her to face him. However, even though she stands directly in front of him Clarke cannot bring herself to look him in the eyes.

" It was meant to be me." She whispers, only so Bellamy can hear. There was no point in trying to change the topic because Bellamy knows her so well- so her sudden truth statement kinda shocked him: even if he didn't show it.

" What do you mean??" He asked concerned

" He was meant to shoot me...not Lexa." She admits, now looking into his eyes- full of pain and loss.

Instead of responding he pulls her into a hug, not just for her but because he needs one too. He places one arm in her hair, stroking it softly and the other at the bottom of her back, keeping her close. Clarke doesn't hug back, not straight away but she stays like that for a moment. Until, she decides to shift. She hugs him too, both hands wrapped around his neck, and she buries her head in the crook of it.

It was tragic art piece, they moulded together perfectly yet they were both so broken it was sad, but the comfort they gave each other always helped them pull through.

She doesn't sob. Or cry. But she just allows him to offer her comfort- even though she thinks she doesn't deserve it. Bellamy on the other hand, sniffles but refuses to let tears fall- he was a mess at that point. Not only had his sister practically disowned him and blames him for Lincolns death. Bellamy's love for Clarke was eating him up inside- i can't confess, she just lost her lover. It's selfish- I can't do that to Clarke--is all he thinks in that moment.

" Clarke, you know you couldn't do anything.." he says trying to keep her together

" I could have. I should have. I-"

" You loved her Clarke, it's okay to be upset. I'm not gonna judge you if you cry. I want to be that person you go to." He admits as she pulls away from the hug and eventually meets his eyes. It's only now she realizes he's just as broken as she is.

" Someday Clarke you'll learn to love again, whoever it's with... your fixable." He says but also thinking he isn't- but the thought came to Clarke first- but only she thinks no- she knows he can.

" so are you Bellamy. Listen to me, Lincoln's death is not your fault, his blood is not on your hands." She says through silent tears

" Some of it is." He replies with tears fall freely from his cheeks- he only ever properly opens up to Clarke," And I lost Octavia because of it..."

" Some of his blood is mine Bellamy." Clarke admits honestly

" What are you talking about?" He says dismissively

" If I hadn't left after Mount Weather.... you would be ok, I would be ok- God why did I leave. I'm a monster Bellamy I've done terrible things." Her voice trails off as salty tears fall into her mouth

" We've all done terrible things and Clarke, if it meant that everyone would be safe I would do it again." He says truthfully.

" I've lost everyone Bellamy. Everyone hates me." She eventually lets out a small sob and it's at that moment Bellamy breaks

"You haven't lost me." Is all he says and she gives him a sad smile,' It's okay to grieve for Lexa Clarke, it'll take time...you loved her." Those words pained him because she was in love with someone else and it pained him to see her so broken and hurt.

" Not the way I-" she stops herself before she causes anymore damage.

Clarke had actually known this for awhile, it was part of the reason she left after MT.Weather. If she told Bellamy how she felt she would break him so she found a distraction: Lexa. But things got complicated...Bellamy however, had completely missed the fact that Clarke had nearly confessed her love. She swallows and as timing is always perfect on the ground, her mom comes waddling over with Kane.

Clarke loves Bellamy, she always had but she couldn't help but think that she would ruin him- so she didn't tell him. She also thought it was disrespectful to love so fast.
Bellamy however, knew he loved Clarke once he put the pieces together about Mt. Weather how she sent him in because she loved him or as she put it she was being weak. Bellamy admired Clarke from when she first mercy killed Atom..and he always kept it secret. However, it was a clear jealously when Finn came into the picture even more with Lexa.

One day. Some day I'll really tell her. Bellamy thought to himself as he watched Clarke talk to her mother and Kane as he pretended to listen.