Would You Be Mine *Book 1 of the Unspoken Series* (ADOMMY)

Frozen (2)

Tommy POV

I felt like I was floating. Nothing made much sense to me. Maybe that's because I couldn't feel anything? I'm not sure. I did feel like almost as if my skin was trying to slide away. Is that weird? Maybe I'm thinking too much, maybe I just need to sleep. But I feel like I've slept a lot really, which is weird considering the fact that I'm insane insomniac. Maybe I need to wake up, maybe that's what I need to do. I'm thinking, I'm trying to remember what happened the last time I was awake. The last thing I remember, Adam is at my house, his mom is there too. I finally decided to eat, and they just had to show up and completely ruin my appetite. I remember him apologizing. But, I don't remember forgiving him. And then I remembered my stomach was clenching in so much pain . Oh! That's what happened. My body decided to kill itself by throwing up every ounce of blood I have. And then I felt my heart start pounding. Shit! I told Adam that I was raped! Oh fuck! how am i going to explain that?!

Just then the door opened. I looked up expecting Adam glaring at me or maybe even yelling but to my surprise the doctor stood looking at a chart. He looked up to see me looking at him. I blinked not knowing what to expect. To be honest, I dont really want to be here. According to the pain registering on my body, I don't really have much of a choice. He walked in and looked at me sadly.

"How are you feeling Mr.Ratliff?" he asked softly.

"Uh, just Tommy is fine, and ok I guess" I lied. I wasn't ok, but I didn't want him knowing that.

"Tommy" he started,  "you have a lot going on, don't you?"  he said. I looked down, not wanting to see his pitying gaze.

"Why dont we start with the most obvious, you are really underweight. was that done on purpose?" he went on. I looked up at him in shock. really?  i am 34 years old for God's sake. In what world does--

"No."  i answered truthfully, he nodded looking down.

"I also see a few very deep lacerations, are these self inflicted?" he asked me pointedly. I swallowed and pursed my lips, before answering.

"Yes." I didn't really want to go into detail about it. He nodded before continuing with his questions.

"I need to ask you a few personal questions Tommy, is that ok?" he asked in a tone that was slightly softer than his previous one. I simply nodded nervously.

"Are you gay?" I shook my head. Sure I was in love with Adam, but I still like women.

"Ok,  have you ever has sexual relations with another male?" he went on.

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Adam POV

I woke up feeling groggy. I glanced to the side to see my mother sitting in a chair beside me. I swallowed and licked my lips. I knew something important happened, I just couldn't pin point what. It was like I was dreaming.

And then I realized this was no dream. This was a nightmare. Tommy. The man I love, and have loved for years was raped. I could feel my blood boil, but it felt like I was paralyzed.

"Adam?" my mom spoke softly. I looked over at her. And then I realized where I was.

"Why am in the hospital?" I asked. she paled and blinked rapidly for a second before she spoke.

"Tommy told you something,  I don't know what, but it did something to you. You were enraged Adam, like nothing I have ever seen before. You dropped him, and stormed around until you decided you where gonna kill him. You just kept saying that. and something about hurting someone you love. it was the oddest thing. I could not get you to calm down. When the paramedics came, you where so angry,  they had to call the police to restrain you. It took four officers and a strong sedative to get you to stop fighting to be free. I was so scared that you where gonna get hurt. They brought you here to make sure your vitals were still normal." I grew more and more shocked as she went on. But there was still one vital piece of information I didn't have, one that I needed desperately.

"Where's Tommy?" I whispered.

"Next door. You can wait until the doctor is done with him." she said. but I was already moving.

"Adam--" my mother started, but I simply kept moving.  I had to see him. I stumbled out of the room and looked to the right and saw an open door. I peeked in and saw no one. Must be the other one. I walked to the door and saw him propped up on pillows. he looked so small. Much smaller than I remember.  I watched as he nodded his head to something the doctor had asked, and again as he shook it to something else. Then to my horror,  he went pale. He matched the white sheets around him. My eyes began to water as he grabbed his chest and started coughing. 

And then, he coughed blood up. I meekly stood bas the doctor rushed to his side, and propped him in his arms while pushing the nurse help button.  In seconds nurses were pushing past me into the room. and as the door opened, I heard a horrific sound. I fell to my knees pain gripping me it's clutches.  But not even my loud soul wracking sobs could drown out that sound.

the sound of Tommy. The sound of his heart stopping.  The empty sound of a flatline.

Tommy's heart had stopped beating.

Tommy had stopped living.

Tommy was... dead.

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Authors Note: you guys are gonna kill me aren't you?

please don't though. if you do, I won't be able to finish the book. and it is FAR from over. FAR from over. remember that as you plot my death. it isn't over yet.