listen to your heart

sechs

i tossed and turned in my bed, feeling an everlasting joy filling my heart. my mouth smiles on instinct because of the memory. i finally stop moving, the excitement inside me had come to a somewhat stop. do i text him now? or do i text him in the afternoon?

he wasn't specific with later! being single for so long really limits you to some helpful information. opening my eyes, i get up and fix my large bed. not feeling the suns warmth just yet bothered me slightly, i push back my thick and silky curtains to reveal one of my favorite views. and the man that built me up, but also tore me apart.

fury runs through my veins with a hint of sadness, not because i loved him anymore, but because of how saddening my story with him was. it was depressing in all, i change quickly into leggings and a loose t-shirt that revealed some part of my chest. i roll my eyes, who cares? he's seen all of your body anyways, he didn't deserve to take my virginity. throwing my hair up in a slightly messy ponytail, i jog downstairs to see him talking to my mother.

alyssa looks pissed while he is practically begging her for something. she sees me from afar, her reaction turning twisted to torn on letting me approach him. he sees her staring, his gaze shifting, all eyes were on me and the spotlight was burning my skin.

"get the hell out of my house."

being the shy, deaf girl had been over. my voice wasn't quiet anymore, it wasn't going to be the heartbroken girl that pleaded for him to come back. it was who i am today, finally meeting someone who makes me smile; happy. he is not going to ruin this for me.

"laura, dear. please listen to me-"

"listen to you? i gave you years, stefan. years. and you threw it all away for what? your cowardliness? that deep in your heart, you didn't love me enough to say those two damn words i held my entire heart upon?"

towards the end my voice had been coarse from shouting so loudly, he flinched multiple times at my harsh words.

"i love you, laura. i still do, yeah, it was a stupid mistake for me leaving you. the worst mistake anyone can do to a woman like you, and i'm so so sorry. another chance is all i ask of—"

"NEED I SHOUT TO YOU THE TRUTH TWICE? I'M HAPPIER WITHOUT YOU!"

shoving him from his chest, he moves back slightly. guilt all over his face. you fucking broke me.

"i'm happier with someone else. you can't leave me and come back when you decide to get yourself together. i've waited long enough,"

my chest felt heavy, i just want shawn right now.

"you're lucky i waited at all after you pulled that shit at the altar. you have no right to ruin what you forced to be built up again."

the words i spoke—even if i couldn't hear them—were poisoning him, he was stuck in a sick world, it was about time he got the disease. my mother looks at me shocked, i only turned away, opening my home's door. to my luck, the only man i wanted to see as of now was standing right in front of me. looking him directly in the eye, my sight began blurring, my throat closing up. i jump, throwing my arms around him, he didn't need time to know what was wrong.

i cried and cried, and cried. the sound of my sobs quieted when he slowly let me go, his hand sliding through my messy hair to hold my tear stained cheek. i'm a fucking mess. i tilt my head up to see him staring at stefan, his hand lets go of my cheek gently, his other hand balled into a red fist. i could see the rage emitting, he kisses the top of my forehead, before letting me remove myself from his hold.

i blink, seeing him throw a full blown punch at stefan, his head jerking to the side.

"so you're the ex,"

i read his lips, assuming his anger was barely contained in his voice. my mom began clapping, i widen my eyes.

"mom!"

she gives me a you know he deserved it and more look as she made her way over to my brown haired man.

"i apologize for this first impression, mrs. parker. i'm really not all that violent,"

of course my mother scans him up and down, her eyes widening. i give her a glare, walking to her side.

"so you're shawn?"

he nods, offering a hand, she takes it. he places a polite kiss on the top of her hand, my mother was vaguely pleased with his manners.

"he punched stefan, i like him already."

i can't help but let out a slight giggle, shawn shows sheer gratitude in my mothers approval of him. stefan had been knocked out cold from the impact.

"you should stay for dinner! i would love to get to know my son in law."

i pinched her tricep lightly, making her yelp in pain, the embarrassment from me was clearly visible. son in law! to my surprise, shawn's reaction was him staring at me in complete admiration... and maybe even love.