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oh my

Okay

So basically I'm writing this at 12:49 in the morning

Guess what I've been doing during that time

Crying and being depressed :D

Oh and replaying Pokemon Moon just to get the stress off my mind

Legit

I had to tell my mother that I couldn't go to school because my anxiety and depression is way to high

People need to learn when joking is too far

Like

There's this person that keeps talking //joking// about me being short

Okay I was laughing at first

Now

I literally want someone to inject me with Novacaine and kill me as hard as they can

And then my other friend //who thinks it's okay to torment me about every mistake I do// joins in with that person

God I feel like throwing up

I was about to cry in school because I kept thinking to much

I'm actually trying not to cry right now

My head hurts

I'll be studying while I'm at home today and thinking

It's funny actually

I'm really kind to everyone on Wattpad

But I'm a huge pessimistic when I'm not on the internet

You guys are just so considerate and I love that so much

Makes me want to live a little bit more :')

Note:

I would never kill myself
I don't want to go to hell

But that doesn't mean I'll find some way to get jacked up on Novacaine and someone I know kill me

Which is unlikely

So be happy

I have to suffer

Mood: just need to breathe and get some rest
Ew
My pillow is wet that's pretty gross

Current time as I type this: 1:01
I feel a bit better now
This probably won't be posted until 3:00-4:00
It's thundering outside-
Even better

And I have a dentist appointment today

Guess who's gonna get depressed again because she keeps forgetting to brush :)
Me
You know
Kinda difficult to remember when to brush and have anxiety at the same time

Ugh

Now I feel better

But also still horrible

At least I don't have to suffer today at school

Love you guys