May doesn't know
She had an older brother
Mum and dad erased all memory of you.
I secretly kept some of your things though,
Before they burnt it all.
I hope you don't mind.
I play basketball now,
for an actual team!
when I'm running, chasing, dodging, shooting, scoring,
adrenaline kicks in and,
it's when my heart is thumping, pumping, racing, jumping
that i feel closer, connected,
- to you.
Grandpa was the only one
I'd talk to about you.
The only one who didn't make me feel ridiculous for missing you.
When I cried, he'd ask me
to sit near him,
And held me, till I fell asleep.
Even though I wasn't a child anymore, at 15.
May was so young when it happened.
When you disappeared.
Now you and grandpa are
both...
well..
not around anymore.
I drink coffee to stay awake.
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a.n: Sakina's brother disappeared when she was 15, she writes mainly for/about/to him to help her to remember/deal with his missing presence. May was a baby when he disappeared. Sakina is 21 now.
it's been awhile though, hasn't it? that i've updated. believe it not, i came back because i felt the intense need to. to finish things. i know i've been saying that for a while, but i realise i want to achieve something by the end of this writing challenge, and even if nobody else takes notice, i'd like to prove to myself, that consistency creates things. that being persistent pays off in the end. and more than anything, that no matter how messy my thoughts and words, i am capable of sharing them ✨
YOU ARE READING
drafted thoughts (30 Days Challenge/CPN)
Conto[ "What if I found a way to express myself without ever having to actually talk? What if I could share my thoughts without ever having to speak them?" ] Sakina Resilense always seems to have so much to say, but never seems to be able to find the co...
