AURORA

Chapter 20

A/N: Okay so before I start this chapter, the picture above is another cover that I made for this book. I actually made a lot of covers for this book so I'll probably put them in random chapters. Also when I was still in the beginning process of starting this book, I couldn't decide whether I wanted to title it 'AURORORA' or 'In Love With A Girl?' so some of the covers will probably have that title, but yeh obviously I decided to title it 'AURORORA'. Okay, anyways sorry about that long authors note, now let's get into this chapter.

Aurora's POV

Well, to say that the air between Delilah and I has been a little awkward would be an understatement.

I mean I should probably say something but.. I don't even know what I would say...

But I can't just let there be this awkward tension between us, I mean there shouldn't be any tension, we both wanted to be in a casual relationship, right?

Okay, that's it, I can't take this silence, I have to say something.

"Are you mad at me?" I blurted out. Oh, nice one Aurora, what a great thing to say, ughh.

"No, why do you ask?" She asks me.

"I don't know, you've just barely said anything to me, but I guess I haven't been much of a conversationalist either" I say.

"Yeah... So.. are we like allowed to see other people then, since this is like not an exclusive relationship?" She asks.

"Yeah I guess so" I ask not daring to look up, because I can't look her in the eyes and tell her that I'm okay with her seeing other people, because that would be a lie. And I know that I should be okay with it, because I'm the one who told her that I didn't want to be in a serious relationship but, I didn't know what I wanted then, I was being stupid... I was trying not to fall for her, obviously it's too late for that.

But, I still don't know what I want... Or maybe I do, I want Delilah, just Delilah. Yes, she's the one I want, because honestly, I think that I've fallen in love with her, and if I'm not in love with her, than I most definitely am falling in love with her. Somehow, she has made it impossible for me to get her out of my head, and I don't even know how, I mean we've only known each other for a couple months, but..

"Oh" Delilah said snapping me out of my thoughts, but her voice sounded kinda, like she was.. disappointed..? I don't know. "Well that's... good.. then?" She said it more like a question than a statement, so she was probably unsure of what to say.

"Yep" I said slightly popping the 'p'.

It was pretty silent for the rest of the time, so I just went home, not really seeing a point to staying there if neither one of us are going to indulge in conversation and even when we do, it's just awkward small talk.

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So the next day at school.. was.. well...

It started out okay, I guess. I mean I found out that I'm not failing calculus, I just have a 'D' or was it a 'C', I can't remember, but whatever. I think the teacher said something about me needing to bring my grade up still, something like that.

Unfortunately I was a little preoccupied watching Delilah flirt with some guy that I don't know. But what I do know is that she is so out of his league. If she's gonna see other people, she could at least see someone who's worth it. Ugh I really shouldn't care but I do.

Whatever, she doesn't need to know that. All I have to do is see other people so she won't think that I care.

"Okay, why the long face?" Blake asks as he takes a seat next to me on the floor in the corner of the hallway because I chose to sit there so I can feel even more depressed than I already am.

"No reason. Why would I be upset, the girl that I could possibly be in love with is flirting with other people because she's under the impression that I just want a casual friend's with benefits kind of relationship with her and that I'm completely okay with her seeing other people. And even though I should probably just tell her that I'm not, I'm not gonna, I can't, because I have too much pride for that, so don't even think about trying to convince me to talk to her about how I feel, okay" I tell Blake and by the time I was done he was staring at me with wide eyes.

"Okay" was all he said. "Well feel free to cry on my shoulder" he suggested and I'm not gonna lie, I did contemplate it.

"No that's pathetic" I say getting up from the floor. "I'm just gonna see other people too, somebody's gotta get my mind off Delilah" I told him.

"Yeah you could just do that too" he says getting up as well.

And I think I know exactly who I should call..

Okay.. so I'm really sorry to leave you guys on a cliffhanger but, I really want to continue this whole situation in the next chapter which I have already started working on, and it's gonna be really long and I really think that you guys are gonna like it. So yeh, this was kind of a filler chapter and I know it's short, I'm sorry. Anyways I really want to publish that other chapter ASAP but there's Hurricane Irma and I live in Florida, soo... Yeh. Anyways that's all for now, hope you enjoyed this chapter, love you guys, byeeeee​!!!!