AURORA

Chapter 24

Delilah's POV

I felt awful watching Aurora walk away like that, but what the hell am I supposed to do, I mean she can't even make up her own mind. One minute she likes me and then another and she doesn't even care. And even if she does care, she sure does have a funny way of showing it.

What does she want from me, to be a mind reader? I know that she's obviously mad at me because she stormed off when I mentioned Toby, but she's the one who's always acting like she doesn't care, so she can't just expect me to do whatever is convenient for her just because she decides that she actually wants to give a damn all of a sudden. Besides, if she really wants to be with me, then I want to hear her say the words herself, out loud, to me.

I'm not even sure if I like Toby, but I could try, especially if he gets my mind off of Aurora...

But the problem is, I don't want to get my mind off of Aurora, I really think, no.. I know that I'm in love with her, and I really want to be with her and I want her to want to be with me, hence why I am constantly trying to make her jealous, but I doubt that it's even making a difference, and even if it is, she won't tell me that, so what am I supposed to do?

But now thinking about it, it's probably for the best, because even though I really want to be with her, like I told her, I'm never trying to come out ever again, so it's probably best that we just go our separate ways anyways, because when I'm around her, I just want to tell the world how much I love her and how crazy I am about her.

She sees the real me, she knows me, probably better than I know myself, and when I feel like my world is falling apart, she's the one I think of, she's the one that I go to. She's so sweet when she wants to be, she puts on that bitchy act, pretending not to care about anything, but I know what's really underneath all of that... she's broken, just like me, but that's why we're so perfect for each other, she completes me, and I complete her, at least I hope, I want to be the one that completes her...

Maybe I was too harsh when we talked earlier, fuck, of course I was... ugh... and then there's also still Toby, damn it I can't go out with him, I'm in love with someone else, Aurora, and she's the one that I want to be with.... I should call him...

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Aurora's POV

So I knew that I had to face Delilah sooner or later, that obviously being sooner because I have to see her at school tomorrow, or I could just not go... it's not like anyone would care.

"Hey, you wanna stay home tomorrow?" I ask turning to Blake who was currently drifting off to sleep.

"Sounds good" he says sounding half asleep.

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When I woke up I checked my phone as usual and saw that I had a missed call, from Delilah...

Oh well, I am not calling her back.

If she wants to talk to me, then she can just do it tomorrow.

And now that I've calmed down, there's no reason why I can't be perfectly civil and act like nothing's wrong when I talk to Delilah... tomorrow.

I don't care that she's with Toby at all, because we're just friends... okay that's a lie, however, she doesn't need to know that.

So as far as she's concerned, I'm so fucking happy for her and stupid Toby, I am over the damn moon.

"What time is it?" Blake asked snapping me out of my thoughts.

"Uh... hang on" I say getting my phone out. "It's.. 12:37" I tell him.

"Cool, I'm going back to sleep"  he tried but I stopped him.

"You are not, I sure as hell am not going to let you continue to be miserable over that asshole Alex and that slutty stuck up bitch" I tell him.

"I don't want to be miserable but it's kinda hard not to think about it.." he trails off.

"Well maybe it looked like something it wasn't maybe he was just giving her mouth to mouth, because she drowned" I tried, but I had a feeling that it was most likely what it looked like.

"I'm gonna go on a hunch here and say that that's not what was happening because she seemed fine to me when she was crawling on top of him" he answered.

"Well there are so many other guys out there, and girls and I'm sure they'll actually be worth your time" I assure him as he rests his head on my shoulder.

"Thanks Rory, but I don't want anyone else and I wish I did but I don't, I just want him. Please tell me it gets better" he says.

"I wish I could but I actually was hoping that you would tell me that, I don't actually know if it gets better but right now it doesn't seem like it" I say.

"So I take it you still haven't heard from Delilah?" he asks me.

"Well she did call but I don't wanna talk to her yet, I'll be better at pretending like I'm fine tomorrow, today I just wanna relax, no drama" I tell him.

"Yeah, same" he says.

"Which is why you and I are going out today!" I tell him and he furrows his eyebrows at me in confusion.

"I thought we were gonna relax today" he complains.

"Oh don't be such a baby, I don't know about you but I'm tired of moping around all day about my sad love life, and the best way to get over someone is to get under someone else" I told him.

"Yeah I guess, but I just told you I don't want anyone else" he says.

"Okay well it still wouldn't hurt to go out and meet people, plus we're gonna look hot, really hot, so hot that you're gonna make him regret not wanting you" I assure him.

"Rory I appreciate you wanting to do this, but I couldn't look that hot even if I tried, really hard" he tells me.

"That is not true and that attitude is not acceptable tonight, listen Blake you need to love yourself because no one in this world ever will, you can't count on anyone but yourself" I start to say but he cuts me off.

"Is this supposed to be a pep talk, because if it is, it's not a very good one" he tells me.

"Okay the point is, you need to have more confidence in yourself, especially tonight" I told him.

"Well that may be easy for you, but it's kinda hard to have confidence when you're damaged, not a catch for anything and look like shit" he says in a dispiriting tone as he looked down.

"Okay for one you do not look like shit, I mean, I'm not even into guys but if I was, dude I would've been all over you" I say making him laugh. "What, it's true, like I would've definitely made a move on you already, cuz you're hot" I told him and his cheeks slowly started going red.

"Thanks Rory" he says smiling.

"Anytime" I say. "And you're not the only one with damage, every one has damage, so let's just forget about all that shit tonight and have a good time yeah" I say trying to persuade him.

"Okay fine" he finally agreed.

Soooooooo, it's been a month since I last updated, sorry I did plan to update but then exams came up and yeh I was just busy but hopefully I'll start updating more because I'm so close to finishing this book like there's less than 10 chapters left! And then I can start the sequel which I'm really excited for because I have a lot planned and I might make this like a book series idk.. but yeh I hope you all enjoyed that chapter it's a little longer than the usual chapters so yeh, love you all!!! Byeee!!!!!