HATE THAT I LOVE YOU

FORTY SEVEN

Steph's POV

Dean walked in and I closed the door. I paused the movie and watched him. It was dead silent for about thirty seconds.

"So um, what did you want to talk about?" I asked clearing my throat in the process.

"I heard you outside while you and Roman were arguing. I know what you said." He looked up at me, his expression unreadable.

"It was true. I do love you. Still."

"So now all of a sudden I'm in a relationship you want me back after Roman cheated?" He asked.

"Dean all I said was I still loved you. I know you're not happy with AJ and -

"How the hell do you know that Steph? You think just because I spent forever trying to get you back you think I'll always choose you. News flash you didn't let me. You stayed with Roman. Now when your feelings are hurt you want to try and run back to me. I'm happy with AJ." He growled interrupting me.

"Dean please. I-I just want to work on us. I know you still love me like I love you." I sighed.

"You don't understand Steph. I'm tired of our relationship. You and I used to be close but now I feel like I don't know you anymore. At all." He shook his head.

"Yeah we did but that was because of you." I muttered.

"Here we go with the blaming shit on me now. Steph when the hell are you gonna realize it's not just me who's in the wrong here? How many fucking times have you played with my heart? How many fucking times have I tried to make things better but you shut me down? You don't fucking know, you did 24/7! You never gave a damn about my feelings but oh now when Roman and you broke up you just thought that I was gonna come and be superman. You thought that you and I were gonna give it a try again? Well you thought wrong!" He yelled. I flinched a little as a single tear rolled down my cheek. I quickly wiped it. Why the hell does everything hurt me. Come on be strong steph. Fuck it, I can't. This is the love of my life we're talking about here.

"Dean, you don't mean that." I stammered.

"Yes steph, I do." He protested.

"So what are you saying? I asked.

"That we can't be together anymore. I feel it's the best. AJ has been a wonderful girlfriend to me. Unlike you haven't been before. I've been happy without you. With you I'm stressed. So there you have it. There is no more you and I." He got up and walked outside and I followed behind him.

"So you don't love me anymore?" I asked as the rain poured down on the both of us. He sighed and turned around raking his fingers through his hair.

"You're making it harder for me Steph. Of course I still love you." He said. I came closer to him.

"Well why are you giving up on us then Dean? Please I'm so sorry if I made you feel some way that you didn't like. I'm willing to change whatever you need me to fix. I'm so sorry Dean. I just need you here with me. I know you don't love AJ like you love me. Hell you probably don't love her." I pleaded.

"Steph quit it. We just don't have that connection anymore. It doesn't matter if I love her or not. Im happy. A lot has changed. Just, listen to me." He walked closer to me, cupping my face with his right hand. I closed my eyes, suddenly feeling some relief.

"Dean I-I can't do it without you. I realized that a long time ago. Please." I begged, my voice breaking.

"Yeah, but yet again you didn't realize it until now. I love you but I just, can't." He traced my bottom lip with his thumb. For fucks sake Dean, stop that. Soon enough I felt his lips connect to mine. I kissed him back for a while and he broke the kiss shortly after I did.

"I've realized that while I was with him. This isn't the Dean you were before."

"Because I was hiding how I felt before. Plus I heard that you're leaving The Shield. I wish you the best on your quest to capture the divas title. Goodbye Steph."

He walked off and shut the door to his car and drove off. I stood there unable to move. Soon enough I broke down as I watched him turn the corner, his car soon disappearing.

I finally gained some strength and slowly walked back into the house. I shut the door and slid down against the wall and cried my eyes out.

I guess him and I are no more.

Dean's POV

That was the most hardest thing I've ever did in my life. I gave up on her. But people should just understand my point of view for once instead of hers all the time, making it seem like I'm always the bad guy here. I got tired of it. But seeing her breakdown like that hurt me the most inside. I just couldn't bare it. Tears clouded my vision as I drove on the highway back to Roman's house. I shook my head and tried blinking back the tears and get Steph out of my head.

Soon enough a tear fell down my eye and I quickly wiped it. This was the first time I've ever cried in a while. I knew I was a strong guy but every guy has a soft spot for someone they love. I sighed as the tears just fell. Why did love have to be this hard?

I muttered and cursed to myself to try and make them stop falling but they didn't. I screamed and banged on the steering wheel and looked down. I looked up hearing honking noises.

That's the only thing I saw before a semi hit me from the side making my car flip over constantly.

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