Forsaken

The man needs a thermostat

If you thought I had come home and locked myself away, licking my wounds. You'd be right.

It wasn't even 7.30pm and I was sat in bed after taking a bath to ease the pain in my tummy. My hair was still damp and only brushed. I didn't have time nor did I care about drying it.

I didn't know how long I had been sat in bed, staring out the window at the trees that blew in the wind whilst I was wrapped up warm and cozy wasting the light of the day. My mind toyed with the idea of getting a dog, or a cat. Based on the fact that I had decided within myself, that I clung to Aaron in such a short amount of time because he gave me love and attention. Although now I knew love was too strong of a word, but he did give me some attention. Cared for me enough to make sure I was happy and alright.

Well a dog could love me as well.. But the idea of getting a dog to fill my lonely heart felt somewhat selfish of me, considering I was only debating the thought because I was still sore on the rejection list, I was also still confused by the odd behaviour of Aaron. Maybe this was his norm? That the man I had laid on the couch with watching an old film really wasn't the man I thought.

Maybe I didn't know the real Aaron at all?

He was a riddle, an enigma.

Now I was just aimlessly staring at a bird across the street, sat on top of an aerial braving the cold and the wind.

Such a strong little bird.

I'd never been caught up like this on a guy and I knew why, they had always said what the problem was. Aaron just gave mixed signals and riddles.

My phone buzzed on the side making me roll my eyes away from the little bird to look at it. But the time I looked back, the bird had flown away leaving me with nothing to look at...

As my phone went again, I leant over and grabbed it only to cut the call and push it back down.

I don't answer withheld numbers.

Twenty minutes later there was knocking on my door. I sat there in bed waiting for the knocking to stop when a voice called through my home.

"I'll stay here all night!" Maria yelled.

Rolling my eyes, I slipped off the bed carefully and answered the door.

"You look like crap." She announced.

"Thanks. I was at work early, come in." I stepped aside letting her in and closing the door behind her.

"How are you?" She smiled with bright eyes.

This is where I felt envy, the bright eyes, glowing skin and happy face. She was full of love and received it back, even a blind man would see the love Zak gave her. Kinda made me sickly jealous...

Why couldn't I have that?

"I'm okay considering I look like crap." I retorted before winking. "How are you? Theo?"

"Good, we are all good. So you getting ready?" She asked.

"Huh?"

"Tonight? I just dropped Theo off to Zak's mo- you've forgot."

I gulped.