Mission Impossible: BTS

Chapter 7: That hateful, gray day.

For the next few days, we did all kinds of testing, such as hand-to-hand combat, using our brains for strategies to find out the best solution to a situation as quick as possible, weight-lifting, and much more. We were all so exhausted, we looked like we could substitute for the zombies in the Walking Dead cast.

"Can't.. Take... One more... Step..." Jimin groaned as he fell to his knees on the floor few feet before our dorm room door.

Yeah, that's right. OUR dorm room door.

We had to all share a dorm, but I had my separate room farthest down the hall and I had my own bathroom while the boys had to share their rooms.

Namjoon rolled his eyes and dragged Jimin's arms into the dorm as Jin unlocked the door. As soon as they were inside the room, Namjoon let go of the tiny man and abandoned him there. The rest of the boys proceeded to drop to the floor and rest like Jimin. Yoongi was already asleep.

Sighing, I made my way to my room, stepping on big lumps of bodies strewn across the floor. They moaned in pain but they were too tired to retaliate.

I quickly grabbed a clean towel and went inside the bathroom for a nice hot shower. As the steam fogged up my mirror, I stood under the heated water and started to hum as I washed my hair with the strawberry-scented shampoo. Soon, I was singing loudly to my heart's content, channeling my inner Ailee.

"I will show you a completed changed me

I will show you a way prettier me
I don't wanna cry like a fool over love,
Over you who left

I will meet a hotter guy
And I will show you for sure, a me who is happier than you
I won't be sad without you, I won't break down,
Boy you gotta be aware

Whoa whoa whoa"

My voice faded as I recalled all memories of him. He who was my first love, my future, my everything. My heart began to ache as the memories resurfaced and the old wound in my heart throbbed.

We were deeply in love, or at least I thought we were. Childhood sweethearts, as people call it, would describe us perfectly. I remembered the day that I confessed to him, blushing.

I smiled through my tears as I remembered how happy I was when he accepted.

As the years passed by and we went to high school, we were inseparable. The whole school labeled us the "Cutest Couple" and I secretly enjoyed it, while denying it in front of him. I shook my head and laughed humorlessly at how naiive I was.

All that happiness ended one day. That hateful, gray day.

~*~

"How could you? I trusted you!" I yelled at him.

He shrugged and looked away to the rain hitting the window shield. "It happened. Get over it, Sia."

My hands trembled in anger and I fought to keep my temper down. "Tell me what happened. I want to hear it from your mouth, not from everybody else."

"There's nothing to tell." he replied curtly.

"TELL. ME. WHAT. HAPPENED!" I slammed my fist on the car's door, ignoring the throbbing pain.

He sighed and finally looked at me in my eyes. "I don't love you. I never did. I felt bad for you since your parents died when you were young and you didn't have anyone else. I thought it would be rude if I rejected you. But now, I think this pretend game has gone long enough. I want to be happy too, you know." he said calmly.

My heart shattered. "You... you weren't happy... when you were with me? You dated me out of pity? All those kisses and hugs.. never meant anything to you?" my eyes welled up.

"I knew you were going to act like this, so I didn't want to tell you. But now that you know, it's better to end it. Let's break up, Sia." he rolled his eyes, as if I was annoying him right now.

I shook my head in disbelief at the man I had loved for years. Without a word, I yanked opened the car door and walked out in the pouring rain. I was glad for the rain as it masked the tears streaming down my face. Instantly, my hair and clothes were drenched, but I made no move to run for shelter.

He didn't come after me either.

~*~

I turned off the shower head and wrapped a towel around myself. I reached out and swiped my hand across the foggy mirror, revealing my pale face and scars across my arms and legs from years of training.

After that incident with him, I had never loved another person again. I locked my heart away, as cliche as it sounds. I didn't want to be hurt again by the person I love.

Pushing all those memories back, I wrapped the towel around me tighter and walked out of the bathroom. I opened the door to my room and was surprised as I found Jungkook sitting on my bed. He was looking through his phone and his face snapped up when he heard me come in.

Our eyes met and few seconds passed before Jungkook hid his face in my blankets while blushing and I let out a high pitched scream that could rival a dolphin.

Rest of the BTS members rushed into my room after they heard me scream, causing a loud ruckus.

"Wh-What happened??" Yoongi asked, with cowlicks decorating his hair. He probably just woke up from a nap.

Then their eyes landed on me and immediately turned the other way except Taehyung. He was just staring me wide-eyed, with his jaw dropped open. Jin noticed and covered his eyes for him.

Namjoon coughed loudly, gathering all of our attention. "What exactly happened? Why were you yelling?" he finally spoke, still not looking at me.

"I.. just got out from the shower when I saw Jungkook on my bed in my room and I panicked, so I screamed..." I mumbled, embarrassed about the whole situation.

Jungkook scratched the back of his head and chuckled nervously. "I just wanted to ask if Sia wanted to go training later with me but she wasn't in her room, so I wanted to wait for her... Sorry, Sia. I didn't mean to scare you.." he apologized, guilt evident in his eyes.

I relax and nodded my head in acceptance. "Yeah, that's fine we can go later." I replied.

Jin then clapped his hands once. "Alright, now who's ready for dinner?" he asked us.

Jimin and Hoseok immediately raised their hands and followed Jin out the door like little ducklings.

Yoongi mumbled incoherent words about going back to sleep and the rest of the boys shuffled out of my room.

Jungkook turned to me. "I.. Uh.. I'm sorry for scaring you, I really didn't mean it... I guess I'll wait for you outside.. Yeah.. I'll do that..." he muttered, still blushing.

I nodded and he walked out the door. I locked it as soon as he was gone and let out a breath I didn't know I was holding.

My hands covered my rosy cheeks as I tried to calm down my heartbeat.

Why was my heart beating so fast?